Hidden Heartbreak I'll Never Let Her See

my laughter is my only response

I laugh
simply because
I have no other response

No words
to stab you with
no empty lies
to bring you to light on my side

I laugh
because if I don't
I fear
my tears will drown us both
in a sea
filled with greed and hate

I laugh
because I never thought
I was this stupid
weak enough
to let you in
and dismantle the wall
that holds back
inner demons of you
I'll never acknowledge

I can't believe
you tricked me
leading me
on a never ending path
stepping on
and on
not wanting your love
to be gone
not wanting you
to be gone

it was only an idea
all along