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𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐛𝐫𝐨𝐤𝐞𝐧 𝐡𝐞𝐚𝐫𝐭 | 𝐚

Trigger Warnings: mention of toxic boyfriend (only in like one sentence, but if it still triggers you, then please don't read it!), girlfriend is in a coma

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Y/N Pov:

Billie had to stay in that stupid hospital for three months now. And it was really getting on my mental health. Of course, I wanted her to be okay and everything, but I can't stop thinking about how our life could have been if that car accident wouldn't have happened.

I looked at the beautiful sky as I waited for Billie in the car. Today was my fourth time driving with it, and even though I had done it three times before, I was still kinda nervous.

I mean, that's literally Billies car, plus it's hella expensive. She always said to me that she would have enough money, if I did something accidentally, but still, I wouldn't want her to pay for something stupid I did, just because I wasn't careful enough.

And I do not have the money to get it fixed, even if I worked for two months straight. But that's another thing.

I tried to push my fears away, and took a few deep breaths. What could possibly happen? I am always really careful, so nothing could really happen.

Anyway, I just tried to let my focus wander to the beautiful blue sky. There were no clouds, and it was a warm day in spring. The flowers were blooming and the birds chirping.

It was truly beautiful. But what was even more beautiful, is my girlfriend, that was just coming out of our front door. Billie. God, she looked even more prettier today. But how can that be even possible?

I just feel like she is getting prettier and prettier every day. Or maybe that is what love made me? I guess, that I will never know that for sure, but I enjoyed the time with Billie, and how safe she makes me feel.

But I should have listened to my guts this day.

I was on the way to the hospital Billie was staying in. I did this everyday before work and after work. In the hope of that she is going to wake up.

She was in a coma for three months right now. The doctors said that she may wake up after six months, but they don't know for sure. There was also another possibility.

As I thought of that possibility, I had to hold back tears, that were grown way to comfortable the last months with coming out of my eyes.

Because the thing was...maybe she will never wake up. Really, never. ever. again. But I tried not to lose the small amount of hope that was still held in my heart.

If she never woke up again...what would I do? I have spent four years with her now. Almost every day I have seen her. We experienced our lows and highs together, we're there for each other, and talked until so many stars were on the sky, that we couldn't count them anymore.

Because that is what we sometimes did. Billie took me to the rooftop and then we would count the stars. The one who counted more stars, won. Most of the time was Billie the one who won.

And then I would pretend to be mad at her, so I could get some extra cuddles. That's how we fell asleep all the late nights. Being wrapped into each other's arms, listening to the heartbeat of one another until we both drifted into our peaceful sleep.