Stay Down

Chapter 16

Ava-
My stomach had been bothering me since I got to my friend Lauren's house. It was causing me to toss and turn all night and I finally decided that something was wrong & I ask lauren to drive me to the hospital cause I didn't wanna be alone. On the ride there so many crazy thoughts were going through my mind like what if my baby is hurt, or can't breath, or can't move. I was so scared when we arrived lauren literally had to drag me inside. When we got inside we explained to the lady that I was pregnant and asked if I could be seen right away. She checked me in and within 5 minutes they called my name to go be triaged. I explained to the nurse about my severe abdominal pains and that I was pregnant and she quickly gathered the things to do an ultrasound on me. I was so scared for my baby's life I didn't know what to do. I thought calling Raheem would help but of course his phone went straight to voicemail. The nurse instructed me to lay back on the hospital bed and she put a blue gel on my stomach it was freezing cold and it made me jump. I was not use to this because I hadn't been to the doctor yet. She grabbed some other thing and started rubbing the item in the gel. She had been doing this for about five minutes and she wasn't saying anything. "What's wrong?" "Is everything ok?" "Talk to me!!!!" I screamed at her. She just looked at me. "I'm sorry but", she started to speak before I cut her off in mid sentence with my loud sobs. I was crying so hard that I was starting to feel sick and I didn't even notice the nurse leaving the room and coming back in with a tall black man in a white coat. I'm guessing he is the doctor. Before he could get a complete sentence out I started throwing up everywhere. Everytime I thought I was finished I started throwing up again. "We have to get this baby out of you, if not it will kill you", the black man spoke. "No", I stated calm before I started to throw up again. "I don't want to lose my baby" I choked out still in tears. I was crying so much that now it was just a silent cry with a sniffle. The nurse and doctor were in front of me trying to convince me to get the baby out of me but I just was not going for it. Lauren has been on the phone the whole time talking to some dude not consoling me at all. I guess I should use the word friend wisely. I heard the door to my room open but I figured it was just lauren stepping out. I had already tuned the nurse and the doctor out and I was just staring into space not saying anything. Something got my attention and broke my glare. I don't know if my eyes and ears were playing tricks on me but I know Raheem didn't just walk in the door and say what's wrong baby to lauren. I didn't have the strength or energy to say something so I stayed quiet. I just want my baby. As I thought about it I started to cry louder gaining reds attention. "Why you in here?", he turned to ask me. I ignored him. "Red you know her? That's my friend I was telling you just lost her baby", lauren spoke. "No man!", he said looking like he wanted to cry but he didn't. Seeing these two interact just disgusted me. I was still throwing up none stop and I'm just drained right now I just want to sleep but I know I can't. "What's wrong red?" Lauren asked. "This my girl and that was my baby" he spat. I'm not his girl but I wasn't going to speak on that. "Wtf", she yelled. "This is the bitch you decided to get pregnant", she asked. "I didn't decide on shit and watch your fucking mouth bout her and have some respect she just lost our baby. As a matter of fact you can leave", he spoke. That was the first time in a long time that he defended me. I was shocked but still disgusted with both of them. Just sitting here in the situation im in led me to do a lot of thinking. I'm killing myself over something I couldn't control and everything happens for a reason. Maybe it just wasn't in gods plan for me to have a baby yet. "I'm ready" I finally told the doctor. "Thank god" he said as he looked up.