Dreaming (A Fantube Fanfic)

4 - Rain Full of Tears

Fan POV

I woke up in the field I knew all too well. I sat up and saw that no one was here. Huh, I guess Test Tube is still awake. Makes sense, I went to bed at like- 9:30.

I stood up and walked towards the whiteboard. Many theories and complicated explanations filled it, as well as some small doodles from me when I got distracted.

It was interesting how similar we thought. Most of the ideas we came up with were very similar to each other's. 'Great minds think alike' Test Tube said.

That comment made me feel.. special. A lot of people just thought I was a dumb chronically online dork when I was much more than that.

I was, and still am, very smart for my age. Or at least that's what my teachers tell me. I let my mind wander for a little bit before I started thinking about my mom.

Oh shit, I didn't tell her I was having a sleepover. And my dad's coming home tonight from his business trip. Fuck, he's gonna be pissed.

And... disappointed. It feels like he's always been disappointed in me..

I suddenly felt a sudden presence and turned around to see Test Tube waking up.

"Oh, I didn't expect to see you here to soon." They mumbled, mostly to themselves. "Yeah, my friends forced me to go to sleep early 'cause uh- y'know. My sleep schedule."

I felt a little bad lying to Test Tube but I didn't want him to get mad I told people about this.. And how they reacted to said information.

She nodded and uncapped a marker as she walked up to me. "Uh.. Test Tube?" "Hm?" "Where are you moving to?"

"New York." I silently gasped. "No way.." "What?" "I live there too!" "Wait really? I had no idea." I smiled as Test Tube looked over the whiteboard.

I sat down on the ground and sighed. "Hey, Test Tube." "Yeah?" "Do you think other things will happen depending on our emotions?"

"I think so. I'm pretty sure our emotions are popping up one at a time." "Hmm, so what do you think the flowers were?"

"It's still pretty unclear. I can't really give a name to the emotion I feel when they pop up." "Yeah me too."

Test Tube came and sat next to me. "I'm sure we'll find out soon enough." I nodded and sighed. "..You okay? You look a little down."

"D-Don't worry! I'm fine." "Are you sure?" I slowly brought my knees to my chest and sighed. "No.."

I felt a water drop on my hand. I looked at my hand confused, wondering if I was crying but ignored it.

"What's wrong?" "I'm at a sleepover right now and my dad's coming home today I know he's gonna be pissed and disappointed in me.. again."

Test Tube listened to me as I ranted. "And y'know- I'm just so tired of having to do everything! My brother never helps since he's too busy and I have to take care of the house AND help my mom who's basically a dead beat."

There was more water drops coming down but I was too busy in my rant to notice. "I can't do anything without being a failure and a disappointment in my dad's eyes and all he sees in me is just a big fat loser!"

I felt my eyes fill up with tears. "I don't know how much more I can handle! I have to do all this homework for these stupid classes my dad forced me to sign up for! I'm not even good at half of the classes I take!!"

I pulled my hair. "I have to prove myself all the time but I can't do that because there's nothing to prove! I'm a failure, I'll never be good enough for him."