warnette imagines

panic attacks

(TW: panic attacks)

(WARNER'S POV)

I keep thinking of the possibilities that my father is alive. Although I know that there is absolutely no possibilities that he is. I still wonder, what would happen if he is? What would he do to me? What would happen to Ella? That's the question that bothers me the most. If he was alive, what would he do to her. What would I do to him? Would it be enough? I cannot even comprehend what would happen to me if something happened to her. Not only would I simply pass away. So would everyone else.

She is what I think about every second of the day. She is the reason why I am alive. I would have killed myself a year ago if it wasn't for her. I think I changed a lot in a year. The year ago me would laugh at me for this. Would laugh at me for ever falling in love. For ever making real friends that care for me. It is quite odd to me how different my life is now. If anything happens to her, I'll set each and every individual on fire with just my eyes because it won't matter anymore, nothing would matter because something happened to her and tha-
"Aaron?"
what is she doing here?
"Aaron? Where are you?"
"I-In the bedroom" I say
"Okay"

I realize I am on the floor, on my knees. I hear her footsteps coming closer and closer but I can't see anything. I'm blind. I start breathing heavily. Is this what will happen if something happens to her? Will I die? I'd probably die. "Aaron..." she says. My hands are shaking, actually, my whole body is shaking. Please, please, please don't tell me it's happening again. I hear her drop to her knees to wipe the tears on my face that I didn't know existed because i'm so numb. "Hey, hey. It's okay Aaron, it's okay. Just breath" I hear her say. 

"Just breath with me okay?" she says.

(ELLA'S POV) 

He's shaking like crazy. Breathing really heavily.. like really heavily. He's crying. He's crying and it's making me want to cry because he's crying. "Hey, it's okay. Im here" I say. He seems to calm down a little when I touched him. He places his hands around my waist and hold me tight. I kiss him on his head. "Im here, okay?". 

I don't know what caused this, but it's really breaking my heart. I love it when he smiles, when he laughs, just when he's happy in general. Because I get to see those dimples. Those adorable dimples. Im crazy for them. And seeing him like this. Seeing him this weak. It's not only breaking my heart, it's crumbling me into powder.  I hug him tight. 

(WARNER'S POV)

I feel safe when I'm with her. I feel happy when I'm with her. I want to always be with her. I want to glue myself to her so she can never escape me. I love her so much. I love her so so much. I love her so much that sometimes I wonder how long it will be until I explode because my body cannot contain the amount of love I have for her. Sometimes I stay awake at night because I'm thinking about what I would be without her, who I would be, and where I would be. Would I still be the emotionless beast everyone thought of me before? I'm so grateful for this life that I definitely do not deserve.

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