Smash

Part of me...

Part of me wants to die.
Part of me wants to live.

Part of me sees the joy.
Part of me sees the hate.

That look when you first fall in love.
That look when you fall down in the darkest pits.

This pits of darkness that consume you. Swallow you whole until you barely a pilot light on the burner if your own life.
Constantly struggling.
Constantly running.
As if there was anywhere to go but forward.
Forward to the light.

That light at the end
Off the edge and through a crack.
As it illuminates the deepest caverns in your dark mind to guide you to your next step. Next way forward.

Part of me sees the darkness in me. Although, always consuming me, can never imprison the energy inside.
Part of me sees the light in me. Although, always guiding me, can lead me into the unknown.

Part of me wants to hate. Part of me wants to love.

Part of me wants to live.
Part of me will die.