Depressed star. ☆Tsukasa Tenma angst☆discontinued

Ch. 9. I hate myself.

Grrrrr.... i'm gonna upload everyday (no promises) i'm gonna always make 700 words minimal or 1000 words when i'm feeling special hehehe

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Tsukasa always wondered if he wanted to actually kill himself or not.

He would worry that his friends, closest family will worry about him.

Tsukasa took a nap to rest all the thoughts from his mind.

He realized that today is the day of their troupes performance.

"Shoot..! It's the day for performance...! I gotta practice...!!!"

Tsukasa then took the paper that he always read.

He practiced for seconds? Minutes? Hours? Yes, he practiced for hours.

Hours until he was pleased of himself to not miss a thing from the script.

He realized that the clock said 5am.

Yes, he first woke up at 3am and then practiced the script for 2 hours straight, without breaks.

"Ah well, it's selfish for me to take breaks afterall... everyone's gonna be dissapointed if i fail the script on stage performing."

His stomach grumbled.

He wasn't hungry though.

You're worthless Tsukasa Tenma.

"What...? What is this voice.....?"

You're useless that even all of your classmates hate you cause you're loud, they say that whenever you're loud, their ears are gonna burst.

"How am i loud...? I'm not that loud....!!!"

Even Nene says that you sound like a train coming fast by.

You messed up everything cause you didn't listen to what the others say. You're useless cause you're not pleasing everyone.

"How...? I'm not useless!!! I'm completely worthy..."

"Right...? No one hates me? Right...? Hahahaha.... everyone does NOT hate me... they don't hate me.."

"See? You can't even trust yourself. Pathetic, worthless bitch. This is why everyone hates you. You should probably apologize to everyone for what you did. If not, you're completely worthless and don't have a purpose for living. Bitchlet. (Not a danganronpa reference)

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... I will, don't worry."

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Tsukasa pov.

Haha... i'm so worthless... i don't deserve to live don't i..? I have no purpose inliving.... hahaaaahaaaa.... i'm going crazy... ああああああああ....

I'm so worthless.

Haha.

I should just disaapear.

I should dissapear

I should dissapear

I should dissapear

I should dissapear

I should dissapear

I should dissapear

I should dissapear

I should dissapear

I should dissapear.

Haaaahaaaahaaaaaahaaaaaahaaaa...

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3rd person pov.

Tsukasa was crying on his pillow without noticing it. He was too focused on the "random voice" in his head.

It was now 6am. Tsukasa goes at school at 8am, so he's fine.

Right?

I don't know.

Tsukasa has been getting messed up by the voices in his head.

No one will help him.

Since he always bottles up his feelings and let them burst when he's alone.

He doesn't deserve such friends like Rui, Nene, or Emu, or Touya.

He deserves to die.

He already hates himself as much how his classmates do.

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It was now 7am. Tsukasa and his little sister was getting ready for school.

"Hey big bro!! I think you would like this curry i made for breakfast!!! Want it?"

"Ah.. okay Saki." He said softly with a slight smile on his lips.

He ate the curry. It tasted good, but he was full. He was full from nothing though.

That's why he kept continuing until he finally gave up and putted the curry in the fridge, hoping Saki wont see.

"I feel like a bad big brother for putting my breakfast that Saki made for me in the fridge.."

He felt like he was gonna throw up.

"Ah errrrr.... Saki..! I gotta go!! Or else im gonna be late!!"

"Okay Big bro!! Do well at school!!!"

Tsukasa then left the house.

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Saki pov.

I don't think big bro's being alright so i decided to stay in the house to check some stuff....

I then went upstairs to check what was in his room.

"Hm.. what's all of the stuff he's hiding?"

Saki didn't care if she was late for school anyways.

"W-..wait... WHAT..?!" Saki yelled.

She found Tsukasa's razor.

"It's full in blood... i guess he didn't clean it yet..."

"I'm so worried about big bro..."

Saki then grabbed the cutter, went to the bathroom and cleaned it.

She was so worried of her brothers wellbeing.

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