Depressed star. ☆Tsukasa Tenma angst☆discontinued

Ch. 13. Something weird about him.

Yay

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Tsukasa didn't feel great today. He was in a worser condition than the other days. He felt like just going home and just throw up.

But, after a few minutes, he would go home.

He just feel like passing out there and now. He didn't have the motivation to do anything.

He felt ill. Disgusted at himself.

His class was different from his troupe members so he was just alone.

He looked at his self harm scars and felt ill right at himself.

He couldn't be a burden to everybody.

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He was at home. It was currently about 13.25

He went to get ready for the performance his troupe planned.

He forced himself to go to not dissapoint anyone. He wouldn't be a Star to anyone if he was depressed right? You wouldn't want to dissapoint anyone...

He put on his show outfit and prepared. Then, he looked at the group chat.

WonderlandsxShowtime

Rui 🎈

The performance is
cancelled

Nene 🤖

Okay then Rui

Emu 🍭

Waaahh... Okay
then...

Tsukasa

What? It's cancelled?
Why wouldn't you guys tell me..

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Tsukasa put down his phone and layed down again. He was too lazy to change out of his clothes. All that preparing was for nothing. The room felt cold... or his body was just cold.. although, it was hot outside, his body felt cold inside. He didn't feel sadness or anger that the performance was cancelled, instead, he felt empty.

He didn't want to go anywhere, he just wanted to lay and somehow drown in bed. His bed was soft, comfortable and warm to sleep on. He held onto the pillow for comfort. He then fell asleep on his bed.

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Tsukasa woke up again finally. He rubbed his eyes. Although, he still didn't want to get off the bed. He felt to comfortable in there. He just layed down and then checked his phone. It has no notifications what so ever. Although, his group members all read his chat.

Tsukasa didn't really care. He stretched his body and then finally got up. He went to the bathroom and ONLY washed his face. And then he put on some makeup on his eyebags to not worry anyone. Especially Saki.

He didn't want to make his number 1 fan get worried or sad for him. She would get depressed to if she heard what was happening.

Although, Tsukasa didn't notice that she already knew Tsukasa was in a bad position. Saki got that information from Nene.

She was worried about him though. She was really concerned that there's a bloody razor in Tsukasas drawer.

Tsukasa got up and went down stairs. There wasn't Saki so he expected her to be practicing or taking a date out with the girlfriends.

He checked the little note on the fridge.

Make sure to take care of yourself!! I made some porridge for you! It's in the microwave >:( (Take care)

-your dearest sister

Tsukasa chuckled at the little note his little sister made. It was really cute and comforting. Oh, such ways to cheer up her brother who was feeling down all day.

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Rui pov

Hm... Tsukasa-kun still didn't seem fine... ah! I know! The SEKAI! It's the place where Tsukasa-kun shows his actual feelings deep down!

I then open up my phone and played the 'Untitled' song.

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I felt shocked.

This wasn't our usual SEKAI.

It was in shambles... i don't even know where are the vocaloids at... it feels so haunting...

I take a step deeper into this SEKAI.

Some parts were empty.
Some parts were eery.
Some parts were scary.

Was this a hint about how Tsukasa-kun feels? I gotta take a look closer into this SEKAI before i tell the others...

Huh... these plushies are still alive... but, they're either sleeping or something... they seemed okay though...

The sky wasn't blue anymore... it was a pitch black sky.

It was scary.

But... i have to do this so we could understand how Tsukasa-kun actually feels.

I looked deeper and closer to every inch and detail of this place.

I realized the vocaloids are gone... i wonder where they went.

Hm.... the fountain is half broken down..
Some of the water from it is leaking.

I then look at the tent... i saw something i did not really expect..!

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Haha cliff hanger