Intrusive thoughts

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by 5sos5l0ver
by 5sos5l0ver
                                        
                                                  *CALUM'S POV*
He  bumped into me. I couldn't stand him when me and him were together. He wasn't really the best boyfriend. Jared was literally so fucking abusive towards me. Luke tried to tell me every time he saw me and Jared kiss, or hold hands. Luke had saw the bruises that seemed very fresh. He guessed that Jared did it, to which my surprise he was correct. Apparently to jared I wasn't good enough or that I am a fuck up. 
*FLASHBACK*
"CALUM WHAT THE FUCK YOU ARE LITERALLY THE WORST FUCKING BOYFRIEND I HAVE EVER HAD! WHY CANT YOU DO SHIT RIGHT?? IT IS LITERALLY SO FUCKING EASY. ALL YOU HAD TO DO WAS CLEAN THE FUCKING TRUCK BUT YOU CANT CAN YOU?!"
"WHAT?!" he said as a random runner was running past the house. I wanted to break down and cry but I didn't wanna make it seem like he got to me. Just as he was going inside his house I called Luke and then I broke down crying.
*END OF FLASHBACK*
I guess Luke knew i didn't want to be ins school when i saw jared, and luke was the first person that i can talk to about anything and everything, like the bullying and harassment that's been going on ever since i came out as bisexual to the school and at home. Did i want to see Jared at school? NO, I didn't want to be anywhere near him since i broke things off with him. I just wanted him to him off a cliff instead of me cause, why should it be me to jump off a cliff? Just as he was going to his class i let go of the breath i didn't realize i was holding until he disappeared into his class. Was jared the worst part of my highschool life? yes yes he was because he always hit me when "i couldn't do anything right in his eye." I always felt scared when it was just me and him in school or at his home but quite frankly i could careless if he got hit by a fucking car or a truck that was hauling something cause i had hoped it would put him in the hospital for a couple months and put him in a coma until i graduated or something, but im not that type of person to wish karma on one singular person but if it was Michael i would've hope he would heal in no time but he doesn't get bullied and harassed like i do which i was glad cause he seems like he doesn't care what people thought of him. He is this really cute and cool guy. I had a crush on him ever since the 3rd grade which is a very long time. Am i scared to tell him how i really feel about him? Yes, yes i am, cause what if he doesn't like me like that? Enough about my huge crush on michael. Just as luke and i was going to our second class which was music i figured it would be a normal class until i realiezed that michael had the same class as us that's when i started to get nervous.