if only.

if only; We could turn back the clock

if only,

If only I could turn back the clock and go back to when we first met. 

I feel that I always lose sight of what I have till I have lost it. 

I don't know why.

I've had a hard whirl trying to accept the fact that our run is over.

It makes me want to scream and cry because of what we could've had.

if only; We could turn back the clock 

I took for granted every text and conversation over the phone.

I took you for granted looking for better when the best was right in front of me.

I took for granted the times you held the door open for me.

I took your laugh, smile, and your warm embrace for granted. 

I don't know how I let myself lose you.

if only; We could turn back the clock

I still miss you in my life,

I still even now just wish to talk to you.

I still wish I was in that same long hug we shared.

I still wish the day I said I love you I got an answer.

But then now you realize that no amount of regret or apology can set aside that our run is over.

As I sit here a thought lingers.

It tests your emotions.

It fills your eyes with possibilities.

Will you love me or did you even love me the way I loved you?

It's just not fair.

Why do the things that make us happiest end in the worst way?

But then.

How do I know our story is over?

How do I even confirm this is the end?

Or is it the start?

if only; I could turn back the clock and rewrite what has been written.