literally my venting book

#32

ok hear me out then, im pushing you away because im scared ill just wake up one day blocked. Im not opening up because idk what you want me to say. Look i wnat it to go back how it was but i cant just be friends with you i want more but i dont want you to feel uncomfortable. and i do not hate you i dont think i could ever hate you no matter how hard i try, yes i called you a cunt but i was just mad and i know thats a shitty excuse to say that to you and i really didnt mean that but what i said in #25 i genuinely meant. Im sorry i just dont even understand my own emotions and feelings atp.