Alan's POV
I haven't felt this great in a whole year and never had I imagined that I can be this happy with another man.
We were just sitting in a riverboat enjoying the view and the dawn sky. He might think I did not notice it but every minute he was moving his ass closer to me on the seat we were sitting on.
I don't even know when I allowed him to cross the line. To touch me whenever he felt like to. To kiss my cheeks, to hold me... I wasn't able to touch anyone for so long, always waiting for Wen to change and touch me gently again like during our first time... but to not lose my mind completely, I decided to try moving on. Moving on with the man who was taking care of me this whole time and brought back the happy memories I once had.
Though I still have some trust issues. I can't allow him to get to my heart... not so soon to not be broken again. One more scar and I seriously don't know how I will be able to keep on living.
"Alan? You've been quiet for a while. Are you enjoying the view so much?" He smiled from ear to ear and I was looking at his hair which was getting messy from the slight breeze. His eyes were sparkling and I could see how honestly he cherished me. I believed his love but I... wasn't able to give him what he wanted from me yet... I still need time and someone to make it faster which could be the therapist he was talking about.
When Wen was still visiting me, I couldn't even think about it. I couldn't be rational with the pain I was fighting but now I've finally got time to clear my mind.
"Yes... I'm enjoying the view." I said and intertwined our fingers. He was holding my tightly and leaned closer to me to wait for the perfect timing to kiss me again...
"Look, the cloud has the shape of a heart."
"Huh? Where?" He was trying to find it and I smacked my lips against his cheeks. I pulled away and he was stroking it.
"Thank you for today."
"Alan..." He moved closer and grabbed the nape of my neck. Before letting him do it, I looked around to make sure no one would see us and quickly pressed my lips against his. I've gotta say, he's an even better kisser than when we kissed for the first time. Has he been training with his hand? No... it must be just a feeling.
As I was sucking him, I laid him down and stuck my tongue into his mouth. I haven't felt so horny for so long but now I didn't want to do anything else than claim this Nong.
Unfortunately, the coughing of one couple disturbed us and I quickly pulled away. I felt nervous again when I knew they saw us...
"Are you okay? Alan?" I slowly nodded and he grabbed my hand.
"I was thinking... should I cancel the reservation at the hotel?"
"You seriously reserved it?!" He innocently smiled and I sighed. He doesn't wait for anything...
"If you don't want to... we can just sleep, no touching."
"No, it's fine. I should also help you with making great memories."
"Wait, wait! Are you serious?! Are we really gonna-?!" I did not expect him to be this excited and I shut his mouth with my palm. It's just sex for me but he acts like it's something very special for him. After even sex didn't help me to fix our relationship... I stopped feeling anything about it. I take it as a duty of a boyfriend or a favor for getting help but Ayan was helping me without wanting anything back which I was really grateful for.
Suddenly my phone was vibrating in my pants and I was startled when I saw the name on my screen.
"Ayan... I need to take this."
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The Age of Broken Hearts | AlanxAyan l FirstKhaotung AU fanfiction (HIATUS)
FanfictionAyan has just moved to a flat to start to live on his own and show his mother that he can move on from his uncle's death but a few days later he's been hearing loud noises from the opposite room. Glass breaking, fighting, arguing and all of the soun...
