Love? | (Ishman fanfic)

Ch- Ignorance.

Shubman's Pov

The next day, I woke up, the other side of the bed was empty. Ishan wasn't there.

I searched for Ishan in the bathroom and then in the balcony. Then I fucking realised to check the time.

It was 2pm. Ofcourse he wouldn't be here, but I became confused as to why he didn't wake me up? He always does it.

Then I recalled what we did yesterday. We kissed. But Ishan said he was fine with it. So why am I feeling uneasy thinking about it?

I was deep in my thoughts and all I could think of was to meet Ishan, ask if he was actually fine with it. I don't know why but I needed a confirmation again.

I quickly went to bathroom and groomed myself before stepping out of the room. After I doing so, I proceeded to enter the dining hall where I expect Ishan to be with the team, because it was lunch time.

And there he was, looking breathtaking.

I greeted all the members present there and made my way to Ishan, sitting next to him. The chair of either side next to him is never occupied with anyone else but me even when we have fought, it has became like a habit, for the entire team infact.

Ishan gave me a glance but looked the other way as soon as we made an eye contact.

something is wrong with him.

I wanted to ask him about the matter but I never got a chance to, he was busy having fun with the team, being the clown while denying my entire existence.

Not gonna lie, It kinda made me hurt, just a tiny bit.

Ok fuck it, it hurted like hell.

I couldn't understand what was wrong, all I could think about was that it was due to the kiss.

But he said it was fine, he assured me.

I couldn't handle this so I left. My teammates were asking me, why I was leaving, if I was fine etc. but the person I wanted the most to ask these questions, acted like I was already not there,I came back to my room.

He is my friend, I kept reminding myself, ofcourse it would be awkward and turn out like this. I shouldn't have done it. He didn't mean his words when he said it was fine.

The whole day I was in my room. Few members came and asked me what was happening, but I told them it was nothing, because honestly even I was clueless. I didn't know what he was thinking. All I knew was it hurted like hell.

Night 10pm,

Ishan finally entered the room after we ate. He came 15mins later than me. But as soon as he came, he went to the bathroom and was taking a long ass time.

He was definitely fucking ignoring me.

Now I felt anger. I didn't let it affect the way I was acting but somewhere inside me, I was definitely fuming as to why wouldn't he just have a fucking conversation and not act all childish ignoring me.

I gently knocked on the bathroom door, not letting the rage in me take over me.

"Ishan" I called, almost like a whisper. But I knew he could listen as it was dead quiet in the room.

"Ishu, please stop ignoring me and open the door." I pleaded.

"Its open" Ishan said lowly.

I sighed, and twisted the door knob, opening the door.

I gasped.

Ishan was doing skincare but thats not what made me stop my tracks, it was him being shirtless. ofcourse I have seen him shirtless like millions of times but this time it just felt different.

But I chose to ignoring this as my priorities were to question him.

"why have you been ignoring me, ishu?" I asked, leaning towards the door frame and scanning his front body from the mirror.

"I don't remember doing so" Ishan said being unbothered and I won't lie, that acted as a fuel to my anger.

"Ishan stop pretending, we both know you were doing so, stop beating around the bush. If this has to do something with the kiss we had yesterday then we can just-" I was blabbering and but Ishan made me fall silent.

with his lips on mine.

My eyes were still shocked and Ishan immediately tried to back away. But I didn't let him.

I held him in the place with my hands as they made there way to his waist.

I pulled him towards me by his waist, and started in his beautiful eyes. There was something he wanted to tell, but wasn't able to. I could see it in his eyes.

I pecked his lips a few times before slowly kissing his lips. His lips didn't move for a min but gradually he started to respond to my kiss, moving his lips slowing syncing them with mine.

I slowly pushed him towards the wall next to the doorframe, caging him with my body and wall, leaving him no means of escape.

All through this time we didn't stop kissing and by now the kissing had became more intense and fast. I licked his lips while my hands made their way to his ass, grabbing them, it made him gasp as i took my chance and entered my tongue in his sweet little mouth. I could taste the vanilla ice cream in his mouth which we had for dinner, sweet.

My tongue continued to explore his mouth, reaching different areas in it, earning gasps from him.

If felt so good.

Practically by now we were devouring each others mouth as my hands roamed around his whole body.

We stopped kissing. I started leaving kisses from his mouth to his neck when I was stopped by him.

"Don't...please" As soon as I heard him, I felt I hurted him. I looked into his eyes, but they said something else, words definitely opposite from what came outside of his mouth.

I decided to not push him further to respect his decision even though it was kinda hurtful for me somewhere down my body.

"You go to the bedroom, I'll come in five mins, please don't sleep. I need to talk. " I told him to which he just nodded and left closing the door.

"fuck man" I saw my dick hard.

I took care of it and came back to the room, ishan was on the bed using his phone.

I layed next to him, "Ishu look at me" I whispered and he just hummed and turned towards me so now we were facing each other face to face.

"what happened ishu" I asked desperate for an answer.

"don't kiss me again shubman" He said

"did I something wrong ishu?" I felt my heart sinking.

"its not you its me, maybe I'll tell you sometime but for now just Don't" Ishan said in a firm tone and turned around again so his back was facing me.

I felt like crying and i didn't know why, He was my best friend refusing to kiss not my girlfriend or something, it shouldn't hurt but it did.

I just fell on my back and closed my eyes, a tear dropped from the side of eye as I desperately tried to fall asleep.

THE END OF CHAPTER

DON'T KILL ME I KNOW I'M SO LATE SORRY HEH.

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