Love? | (Ishman fanfic)

Ch- Best Friends Who Kiss.

Ishan's Pov

The emotions I was feeling at once was unbearing. What Shubman said was completely true, I loved the kiss. But the consequence of loving that were so much. Shubman has a permanent place in the indian team, whereas I am an extra practicing for becoming permanent. If anyone gets to know what we did, it would have a huge impact in out career and lives. Shubman may be removed from the permanent place and as for me? my career would be finished. We can't put both of our careers at stake just for some temporary pleasure.

Hell, I don't even understand why Shubman asked for a kiss in the first place and why did I fucking agree to it, and most of fucking all, why did we like it, that kiss or the kisses I had with shubman were my first. I had never kissed someone else in my life which just fucks me up even more that i gave my first kiss to him.

My feelings are a fucking mess and I know Shubman's are too. I don't think he even thought about the consequence we would face if someone gets to know and I Am Not Fucking Gay.

Author's Pov

Ishan had cried for almost half an hour till he realized it was enough and changed nothing. He took a shower and remembered about the party going downstairs. Even tho he was aware of the fact Shubman was also there, he went. He really needed a drink to calm himself down.

In a few minutes, Ishan reached the room where the party was happening and was again in the same room as Shubman. But Ishan had no intentions of dealing with Shubman right now so as soon as he spotted him, he went to the opposite direction.

Shubman on the other hand was sitting at a couch next to the bar alone and watched Ishan go. It hurted but he knew it was the best for both of them to have space right now. Shubman was again lost in his thoughts about what was happening between him and Ishan when he was interrupted by Virat.

"Itna kya dukh mei hai tu, tere aur Ishan mei kya hogya?" asked Virat out of concern. The whole team had noticed the unusual behavior of Ishan and Shubman.

"Bas thodi ladai hogyi hai bhaiya aur kuch nhi" said Shubman.

"Arey then sort it out, ignoring each other isn't the solution" told Virat.

"I know bhaiya, I tried but it got worse, baad mei phirse try karunga" was Shubman's response.

"You know nicely Ishan is sensitive toh pyaar se baat kar wo samjh jaayega" told Virat.

"Okay bhaiya" replied Shubman.

"But what did you fight about?" asked Virat and Shubman became quiet.

"Nhi batana toh koi na par baat karke theek karle" told Virat.

"Yes bhaiya I will try" stated Shubman.

The same interrogation happened and advice was given to Ishan by Rohit.

Ishan and Shubman both understood its not just about them, they are concerning the other members as well so they need to talk it out.

But for now they just decided to focus on getting drunk.

After 2hrs Ishan was totally drunk to the point he barely remembered anyone's name except Shubman's but Shubman was still kind of sober proving that he could handle alcohol better than Ishan.

Shubman was asked to take Ishan back to their room by their team members and that's what he did. He held Ishan by his waist, really close to him and walked towards the lift.

Shubman noticed Ishan couldn't really stand on his feet so he asked "Want me to pick you up?"

"Don't come with that dialog 'I bench press double your weight everyday', It would be cringe coming from you" said Ishan.