School bus graveyard one shots

Let me forget - Aiden

+Angst/No Comfort

Aiden's not okay,

He hasn't been okay for the longest time.

He misses, having a simple lifestyle, before he had to move everywhere, before gaining all this money, where his friends and him could enjoy their childhood.

But we don't get what we want sometimes right?

Aiden's P.O.V

I tried making a safe space for myself a while ago, it was really pathetic, just a bunch of blankets and pillows in the corner of my closet. But none the less, the smaller space was much more cozy than any place in my house.

Maybe, if I pray hard enough we can move, like move far away.

Or I could always just end my run here. It's not like I haven't tried to before,

but I can't do that to them.

Everywhere I lived, no matter for how long, I try to make up a new personality. I remember once I was very popular in a small town, and others I went by unnoticed.

But it's to deep to turn back, my 'crazy' personality has taken me months to craft, and everybody believes it. I don't even know who I am anymore. It sucks.

Ben knows how I'm struggling, I think he's the only person I can really trust with this shit, I tried to console the others, specifically Ashlyn but I can't bring myself to. I mean i lied to them! For 2 straight years,

how can I ever bounce back to normal?.

They all think they know everything about each other, but it's actually insane how they know nothing. I'm not a people's person, I don't normally talk, and talk until I physically can't.

But I've been an observer my entire life, I can tell when anybody is lying, even if they can do it naturally, there's always something wrong.

It hurts when they lie to my face.

Taking small breaths, I sink into the comfort of my closet. Controlling my violent tears as hard as I can.

It's worse when you actually care about them too.

You learn a lot of things you wish you didn't.

Maybe it's my fault, if I just let time pass and didn't engage in anything, I wouldn't be going to hell every night. I'd be doing my own thing. Without having to worry about anybody but me, but of course I just so happen to make the worse decisions.

Like forcing a friendship onto the first person you lock eyes with.

I still feel bad about that. if I hadn't talked to ash, I wouldn't have asked her to join the history group, and if that didn't happen maybe things could have worked out differently.

I wish.

I wish, so badly,

That things worked out differently.

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I re-read all the Sbg episodes and I feel a little emo, don't come for me guys I NEEDED to get it out of my system 💔