I was a wolf and she was my moon

CHAPTER 23

I brushed the stray tears out of my eyes and sat down. Today was the day. My birthday. It still hurts that my father isn't here.

My shadows were having a blast at the feast but I couldn't take it and came up here, into my room.

I was his daughter. The spitting image of him. Now he's gone and all I have are reminants of him. If he saw how I am now boy wouldn't he be proud. Understand my sarcasm?

I looked at the small cupcake in front of me. The candle fire flickering as I breathed out. Is this the way life will always be? Being alone?

I buried my head in my hands in regret. I always do this. I run from anything I can. I guess I'm just afraid. I will always be afraid from things. Its as if I'm falling and no one will help.

"Happy birthday to me." I whispered to myself. My species have been quiet lately, leaving me alone in my own darkness in my mind.

I closed my eyes and made a wish.

I wish for a happy ending.

I blew out the candles and opened my eyes again, inhaling the scent of the burned wax and smoke.

I sniffled, trying to swallow down my emotions that started to swim through my mind. I sent Liam, Adam, and Bri back. I told them I would, and I just hope they are having a good time now. After all they would need it.

I got up, not bothering to eat the cupcake, and marched in front of the mirror.

My eyes had bags under them and my blue orbs were dull. My usually tinted red lips were dry and cracked. Gulping hard I tried to ignore the pains I am getting from missing Connor. This mate bond is like death and frankly, I would rather face death then live like this for the rest of my life.

Wow, I sound so cheesy. I stared into the mirror a little longer, trying to see if my shadow will come and talk to me. When I was younger I detatched my shadow away from myself because I needed a friend. I called her Sin Marie. She was the one who helped me kill my abusive mother. But as she warned, something was taken away and it was my father.

Would I take back that decision? No. I wouldn't. Because of that decision, I am who I am today. Yeah, sometimes I get depressed but I wouldn't want it another way. I deserve pain for not being great enough.

I'm not the Moon Goddess everyone hopes I am. How do I even tell my werewolf friends? They would laugh in my face.

Why? Because I act like I'm not any goddess material. Because I'm not. I'm just a girl who was given a mistaken job.

I made my way to my Queen size bed and sat down, gently laying my hands on my lap. My blue hair was in its usual wave and I was in my usual black dress.

I tapped my finger against the bed post, wanting to do something fun. An idea came to mind but I quickly dismissed it, knowing that my shadows were having a good time I didn't want to disturb them.

It will have to wait for tomorrow. A smile made its way up my face while I stepped downstairs. I glided across the floor, my feet pounding it lightly. When I made it to the ballroom I jerked the doors open and whistled. My garden of shadows stopped what they were doing and stared at me. Quietness quickly filled the air as I stared around.

Dead bodies cluttered the table (that's what the shadows eat), and blood spilled from a couple of dropped cups.

"Shadows. Feast greatly now. For tomorrow we will rightfully take what is ours." I bellowed so every shadow could hear it. The room erupted in cheers while I heard some shadows ask, "what are we doing tomorrow?"

This earned them some insults from fellow shadows until I held up my hand for silence. Every shadow obeyed and got quiet so I began talking.

"Do not insult your fellow shadows, for some of them may be the new members we got yesterday. For those who do not understand nor know what I am talking about listen carefully. For years I have been in the darkness, everyone shunning me and the moon away. Don't forget also each of you. But tomorrow that will all change! We will fight back and kill anyone who stands in our way. We are going to take over Kistaj! My sister will not rule over Kistaj alone. She has taken what was supposed to be shared between us so I will take it back. Glimmer will and cannot rule anymore. She is not fit, for her power has gone to her head. People will believe in us! Our darkness will consume Kistaj and we will rule over it! No one will shun the night away anymore!" I announced and again, the whole room erupted in cheer.

My emotion took a big turn from what I was feeling minutes ago. I felt power surge through my veins. Making me instantly feel better.

"Feast now my children. Tomorrow we play." I smirked and exited.

I hope Glimmer's ready. She will get a big wakeup call.