I put on a tight red dress that seems a bit too short to bend down in, but I decide to wear it anyway. Venetia is wearing a similar short dress, which I based mine off of. She helps me with my hair and eye makeup. "Your eyes are the perfect shape for this eye look."
"Thank you venetia, you are perfect in general." I make her blush as she finishes the last touch on my eye. "There." She spins my chair around to face the mirror, "Felix and Ollie are going to have to glue their mouth shuts when then see you."
"And you too." I wink at her, we both giggle. I apply a layer of lipstick onto my lips, "do you think this is too much?"
"No of course not, you look stunning." Venetia places her hand on my cheek giving it a squeeze. "stop being so worrisome."
I nod. We make our way down to where the party is, there is a bunch of people wandering around. I look around searching for felix in the crowd. I need to speak to him, I need to tell him I missed him, that I feel it too, that it was not in fact one sided at all.
"Oh darling you look stunning." Elspeth smiles as we walk up to her. I give her a smile back. "I am glad you made it down Cordelia."
"Thank you, it looks lovely down here." I did not really know how to respond. Venetia grabs my hand and we walk away from Elspeth. "Booze. where is the booze?" Venetia giggles, still holding onto me. We wander around looking for a bottle or two.
"Oh look you made it!" Farleigh picks up his arms in surprise. "Oh shut it farleigh." Venetia says, grabbing the bottle out of his hand and taking a swig. She hands it over to me and I take big gulp out of it. From the corner of my eye I see ollie and felix walking towards us. I take another drink out of the bottle, venetia notices, "chug the rest girl!"
I do. Instant regret.
"I need a chaser." I giggle. Oliver offers me his drink and I take a sip out of it. "Thanks ollie, you are always so kind to me." He smiles at me and I give him his drink back and I proceed to kiss his cheek. I realize right then and there I should have not done that. Fuck. I can feel felix's eyes on us, I awkwardly try to make an exit. "I am going to go grab a drink actually, i'll be back." I begin to walk away as I felt a hand gripping onto my arm softly. "Maeve what the fuck." He tugs me towards him, making us inches apart. I look at him stunned and confused. "What felix?" His hand still gripping my arm. "You know what." He looks at me ashamed.
"No felix I don't." I look at him and realized that all I wanted to do was hug him. Make him not feel the way he feels at this moment. "Felix I am sorry." I wanted to tell him right then and there what I have been wanting to tell him, but he had already walked away, heartbroken.
Apart of me doesn't want to let him in because of what he has done to other girls, leading them on and breaking their hearts. Stringing them along until he doesn't need them anymore. Just like india.
I walk over to the counter that had cups and bottles of alcohol layed out. I take a bottle of vodka and walk outside. There is no sight of rain anymore, I continue drinking while walking about. A couple minutes go by and I realize that I have dranken most of the bottle already. I found a bench on my walk and decide to sit down. I begin to overthink everything tonight... If I let felix in he will just break my heart. Is he putting on a show to get me to sleep with him or is it real?
I try to get myself up from the bench and realize I am unable to stand up. I hear footsteps walking from the side of me but can not be bothered to look. "Maeve?" I can tell from his voice it was felix. "Are you okay?"
"Uh yes I am perfectly- actually felix can you please help me get to my room. please" I sit up and place the bottle onto the bench. I can feel my world spinning. He looks genuinely concerned about me, "Of course, you must be freezing out here love." He places his sweater over me, covering me up. He helps me up, "let me carry you."
He picks me up and I wrap my legs around him, and I place my face onto his shoulder as he carries me like a baby. He smells so good, his arms are wrapped around my waist holding me tightly.
We make it up the stairs, he opens the door, "is my room okay?" I nod. He brings me inside and lays me down onto his bed. "Felix, why have you not told me this bed is so comfortable?" I giggle spreading myself out making myself comfortable.
"Well maybe if you haven't been ignoring me and flirting with olli.." He jokingly smirks, grabbing clothes out of his drawer. "Oh shut it" I scoff and roll my eyes at him. "Can we not do this right now, I am so drunk."
He laughs, "here, let me help you change into some comfortable clothes." I sit back up and he begins to help me take off my dress. I reach behind my back trying to unclip my bra, "Can you?" I look up at him and he nods. He is so gentle with helping me out, he has always been such a good friend. Helping me whenever I needed help getting home drunk or even needing a shoulder to cry on. I really do miss our friendship and how close we were. I put my hands up to help him place his shirt over my head. I lay back down, and he begins to undress. I keep my eyes on him as he removes his shirt and jeans, leaving nothing but his briefs on. He walks over to the bed and lays down beside me. This isn't anything new, him and i always have had sleepovers and that one time we bathed together...
"Comfy?" He asks.
I turn to face him, "Yes felix thank you." I smile, "your clothes are always so comfy." He smiles and places his hand up against my cheek and kisses my forehead. "God you're so goddamn beautiful." I giggle nervously, his eyes are locked onto mine. For a moment there I thought we were going to kiss. "We should get some rest." He hands me what seemed to be a bottle of water, "here, drink this before you sleep love."
My head is spinning as I sit up to drink it, he switches off the lamp beside him. I then feel his hands touching my back. Circling his fingers around it, "if you think you are going to be sick let me know so I can help." He then proceeds to kiss my shoulder. I turn to face him and our eyes meet again. I inch closer to him, his mouth so close to mine I can feel his breath, "maeve we are both drunk, you a bit more.. we shouldn't."
"It's okay, I want you felix." I whispered, as his lips grazed mine. He pulls back, "I don't want you doing anything you are going to regret." I shake my head, "I won't regret this, I have been craving this." His face inches away, I grab his face and begin to kiss him softly. He immediately kisses me back, stroking my hair. He begins tugging at the shirt, "you can take it off if you want to felix." He smiles, he lifts the shirt over my head. He lays down onto his back as I climb on top of him. He gently kisses down my neck, and I let out a small moan. I hear a knock from the bathroom door, I pull away from him.
"Felix?" I couldn't tell whos voice it was. I quickly get under the covers, whoever it was I did not want them seeing me undressed. The door opens abruptly, Oliver and Farleigh barge in drunkenly. "Felix come out and party."
"Get out." Felix throws a pillow at them, annoyed. Oliver stops laughing as he notices me on the bed. Felix is practically naked, standing up to get them to leave. He looks at me, the only lighting is coming from the bathroom. I hope he can barely see me, but I know he knows its me.
"Cordelia... you come join us as well." Farleigh begins walking over to me, still giggling.
"Yeah cordelia come." Oliver says sounding very petty. Felix stops farleigh from inching any closer to me. "Oh did we interrupt- oh let's go ollie." Farleigh grabs oliver and they both head out of the room, finally.
"I am so sorry." Felix closes the door. He walks back over to the bed and lays down, "it's not your fault they are drunk." I giggle. "I am just glad I hid myself under the covers, did not want to give them a show."
"Would not be a bad show." He inches towards my face and kisses my lips. I begin to feel a bit drowsy, "Felix?" I whisper. "Yes love?" Love. I love when he calls me that. "I am getting sleepy." He strokes my cheek, "that is okay, we can go to sleep." He kisses my forehead, "goodnight love."
"goodnight felix."
