RANTS

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ok so i knew that my life would be fucked when I got back here to the USA

but i didnt know it would be this fucked

so basically my parents are pissed every second of the day now

and i get that its bc of the stress of my grandma's cancer

but they seem to love to take it out on me

expensive "treatment"?

take it out on me

family drama?

take it out on me

yelling at me seems to be their primary way of releasing stress

and tbh I guess i deserve it

but still

it hurts

and then there's school

I have a friend who's super nice

and willing to catch me up on shit

and i have these other two friends

that are great

but 

all 4 of us are supposed to do this group project together

and since i was gone making sure my grandma wasn't drying

i couldnt do some of the assignments

and the first friends understands that

but the other two are pissed bc they had to write a note

its not that hard to write a note

at least they didnt have to do my work

and I have to handle like 80 different problems

have to help out more around the house so my parents get more time to work and talk with my grandma

and they just don't seem to understand that

which is really annoying

so all the people in my life that I see everyday are pissed at me

including my brother

because i got hungry and ate a bag of chips that he wanted

oops

but it still hurts

and to make it all worse

I missed midterms for all my classes

and all of my teachers were chill with me being gone and were genuinely concerned about me

they know how hard it is for me to catch up

but my math and science teachers

they're killing me istg

my science teacher's pretty nice overall

but she gave me zeroes when my absence was excused???

so basically my school system has this rule

that if you're absent for a while, you need a valid reason for why you're gone

and if you don't have a valid reason you get zeros for everything you missed but you still have to redo them (even though you wont get a grade)

and apparently your grandma dying isn't a valid reason

and my dad sent in like this pdf of her brain scan reports and explained my absence (after I begged him to bc I didnt want to fail all of my classes)

and they just never sent anything back

all of my teachers didn't say anything

and when I took a quiz I missed today in math

and looked at my grade

I had a 0/20

and the comments on it said "student got 18/10" (i spent a long time studying for it once we got back, which made my parents more pissed)

but then at the bottom it said "but absence was unexcused so 0/20 is the final score"

 tf?

it was weird

but a similar thing happened in science

and now im wondering if my absence was excused in the first place

because again

none of the work i've turned in after I got back has been graded

idk man

but I hate this

everything is so sucky rn

and i cant do anything abt it but watch

im gonna fail all of my classes

and my friends have so much drama going on between them

if I ask anyone for help they'll get mad at me

idk what to do