Whirlwind {Slow Updates}

Chapter Nine

My heart was racing. The tears were streaming down my face faster than I could wipe them. I got up from the bed and started to grab some clothes. I just wanted to leave, but I couldn't. So, I opted out for going to be with my family and getting as far away from Vic as I could for a while. I heard foot steps behind me and my heart sunk even further into my stomach than it already was.

"Baby, what's wrong? You're frantic. Take a second talk to me," Vic warily said grabbing me from behind. "What happened"

"I had a moment. I just want to be alone."

My tone obviously was different than before causing Victoria to panic.

"We were just okay. Did I do something wrong," she was soft, trying to reassure me but to no avail. I could tell she was hiding something even if I hadn't already heard the heart wrenching news that there was a possibility she would be starting a family with someone else.

"No. I just... Vic...." I trailed off before turning to face her. Her eyes searched mine with a slight bewilderment. She was scared that I might know her secret and was probably adding two and two together. "I can't. We had a great night. I just need to be alone though. I-I just don't want to..." I began to cry again. She attempted to grab in hope to hold me and stop my tears. I swiftly moved away from her.

"Normani! I can't fix something I don't know-"

"I just need you to be fucking honest with me. I need peace. I need to feel safe with you not expecting all your baggage to ruin every ounce of happiness we have! I already know just tell me! STOP KEEPING THINGS FROM ME!" I yelled, failing to control my emotions.

"I'm guessing you just heard. Baby... It's something that I didn't want you to know for a reason. I don't even know anything for certain yet. All I know is that it is a possibility and he's the only one I've been with, well, besides you." Her voice was soft. Her face was somber with regret. It seemed as if she was trying to reason with me. "I don't want to lose you. So. Yes. I didn't tell you. Yes. I asked you to be my girlfriend. Yes. I want this to work out regardless of what happens. I love you. If you can't understand that, I don't know what else to say."

"There's nothing to say." I sighed. My heart felt like it was about to explode in my chest. I needed air. "I'm not upset at you for sleeping with someone else. To be honest, I'm not even upset you can be pregnant. You know why I'm upset? I'm upset because I'm tired of the secrets Vic. I'm upset because this nigga just won't go the fuck away."

I sat on the bed, tears silently rolling down my face. My heart was beating so fast that it was hard for me to catch my breath. The thought of Vic possibly being pregnant with John's baby was making my chest ache and my head pound. My body felt like it was on fire and I couldn't seem to calm myself down.

Victoria sat next to me on the bed, trying her best to comfort me. "I'm not trying to hurt you, Mani. You know that's not my intentions," Vic said softly. Her hand reached to wipe my tears, but I quickly pushed her away.

I felt as if my whole world was crumbling around me, and there was nothing I could do to stop it. My head was spinning and I couldn't seem to catch my breath. Victoria's words felt like a punch in the gut, and my heart felt as if it had been ripped out of my chest. I couldn't comprehend the fact that Vic could be carrying John's baby, and the thought made me sick to my stomach. I knew I couldn't stay there with her knowing that there was a possibility of her having another man's child.

I needed to get as far away from her as possible, before the pain consumed me. As the realization sank in, I quickly got up from the bed and gathered my belongings. "I'm not doing this, Vic. I just need to be with my family right now. I'll see you in the morning."