Run or Die (#1 of Run or Die)

Chapter-11

Chapter-11

-Daniel

I can't believe myself.. I can't stop myself. My lips crash on hers in a needy friendzy. She's shocked, her body tensing, and then relaxes at my touch. She eases into the kiss and soon joins me in the needed friendzy.

Electricity courses through my veins like sparks from every touch from her. The heat and intensity is enough to drive me mad.

Despite the protests of my shoulder, I snake my arm around her waist, pulling her up so she's straddling my waist.

Our lips move in perfect synchronization, as my other hand winds in her hair. I pull her closer, deepening the kiss. She moans agaist my lips, the call of a siren, and it nearly rocks me to my core. Her lips part, allowing my tongue to skim along her lower lip and intermingle with hers.

My lips break away from hers, planting delicate kisses across her jaw line and down her neck. Another precious moan escapes her lips as I kiss her sweet spot on her neck.

I pull back, yanking my jacket off of her and tossing it aside. I lift her shirt over her and toss it next to my jacket. She's wearing just her tank top now.  She's so beautiful..

Her hands travel down along my broad chest before grabbing the hem of my shirt at the bottom. She pulls it up, above my head and I raise my arms to help her pull it off. She tosses it aside and her eyes roam over my bare skin with admiration.

I freeze against her touch. No one touches me in those areas.. ever. I grab her hands and they freeze above my stomach. "Don't. Not there.."

Her brows furrow in confusion. "Why?"

"Things have happened to me as a child..I don't like to be touched much. Especially in certain areas." I stare down at her hands.

"But its me, Daniel. I don't want to hurt you..ever." She frees one hand and rests it on my cheek. "I mean it. You can trust me. And even if you still don't want me to, then that's fine. But if you ever want to overcome the fear, I'll be ready."

I stare in her eyes for a second. She truly means it. She wouldn't hurt me. She looks at me with a look I've never really seen before, not in a long time.

I glance at her other hand still in my grasp. Slowly, I begin to place her hand above my scarred abdomen. A place no one is allowed to touch. My heart starts pounding faster as fear incases me, and my breathing quickens, faster and louder. She starts to pull it away but I grip her rist tighter. "No.. I have to do this." I squeeze my eyes shut and swallow my fear.

"Daniel, I don't want to force you to do something you don't want to do. I don't want to scare you." Her voice is etched with fear and I know its because she's scared she'll lose me.

I open my eyes and look at her. "Livvy, you already scare me. I've never been so close to anyone like this in like 300 years. I've never felt so strongly about someone before. I love you, Livvy. And it scares the hell out of me. But I love it at the same time. And I love you." I love her.. The realization hits me like a ton of bricks.

For a moment she stares at me, and her silence is killing me. She could never love me back.. I'm not worth it, I don't deserve her.

Her lips crash on mine, rekindling our kiss from earlier. A groan escapes me and I pull her waist closer against mine. Hot liquid wets my face and I pull back quickly. She's crying. Oh Livvy..

"I love you, Daniel." She kisses me again and speaks against my lips, "I love you." And again, "I love you." She says the words like its the most rarest words that can ever be said. To me, their the most precious words that can ever be said, and it makes my heart constrict.

I pull her close in my arms and lay with her. I wipe her tears and rest my forehead on hers. Soon enough I fall asleep like this, holding her.

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"Run! Don't stop! He'll catch you!" My mother yells for me to keep running and I do as I'm told. Father's coming. Father doesn't look happy. Father's never happy.

"Mommy please! Don't leave me! Don't let him get me!" I cry for Mommy but she doesn't answer. I look back behind me, she isn't running their anymore. "Mommy!"

Mommy cries out from behind me and I stop. Father got Mommy. Father hurt Mommy. Now he's going to hurt me.

I run again, faster than I've ever gone before. But I'm not fast enough. He catches me, jerking me back by my hair. I cry for Mommy but she doesn't come.

"Shut up, you little shit!" Father's talking funny again. He's smelly and it makes me feel sick, especially his breath. He takes the belt and whips me with it. The metal cuts my skin and I bleed, crying out in pain. He keeps hitting me over and over again, the metal causes lash marks all over my skin. I cry and cry again, but no one ever saves me.

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A scream escapes my lips as I jolt awake, sitting up and sucking in a sharp breath.

"Daniel??" Liv sits up beside me. My heart is practically beating out of my chest. I'm coated in sweat and my body is shaking uncontrollably from the nightmares. Why are they back? I usually don't have them when Liv is around. She makes them go away.

She hesitantly wraps her arms around me, and I know she's scared I'll shove her off again. Instead, I lean into her embrace and she tightens her arms around me. She leans her back against the door and I rest my head on her chest. She cradles me close, and my heart rate slows back to normal. "Its okay..Your okay." She runs her fingers through my hair and sooths me.

My breathing slows back to normal and my body finally stops shaking. I lift my head to look at her and she leans down, kissing my forehead. "Do you want to talk about it?"

"I was dreaming about when I was a child, when I was human. My father was an alcoholic and a piece of shit. He would beat me, ever since I was a small child. That's where most of my scars come from. My mother..she was the nicest woman in the world. So sweet and innocent.. She deserved a much better life. When I was 4 years old, my father had beaten her so badly.. he beat her to death right in front of me. And then he beat me. I couldn't move and at the time, I didn't know she was dead. I curled up next to her, still in pain and he locked me in the house with her. I was there for 3 days, starving and locked in the house with my dead mother.."

"Oh Daniel..," she pulls me closer to her. Don't let me go..Please Livvy, don't let go..

"No one ever figured out what my father had done. No one really cared much back then. And after that, he still would beat me, just about every day of my life. I was stuck with him for a few more years until the Celtarri found me. They raised me, trained me. I was sent into war and I almost died in battle. But I was saved, by a vampire. When I was turned into a vampire..I returned home to the Celtarri. They happily welcomed me. ..One day I returned home to my father..He tried to beat me, even kill me, but I didn't live in fear anymore...I killed him." I'm scared she'll back away or flinch in fear of me, but she doesn't. Instead, she kisses my head and rests her cheek on top of my head. "Being around you Liv..It makes the nightmares go away usually. Sometimes they come back..but you.. You make them go away. Thank you.." I hug her close and she holds me till I fall asleep again.