Little Things

18- Undeniable

"And that's a p4 start for tomorrow, good work today"

I could've been front row, I was so close and I fucked it up

Once I got out of the car I made eye contact with my brother, "Thia" He signals for me to come over to him so I do, mentally preparing myself for the fact that he's probably going to try and cheer me up. "He's here, so be careful"

"What do you mean he's here?" My eyebrows knot together, there's no way.

"I saw him in my garage right before Q3. He'll probably come talk to you so let me know you're okay"

"Okay, congratulations on pole" I give him a quick hug before I make my way to my garage

Please don't be here, please don't be here.

"Alethia Verstappen" My body tenses at the delivery of my name coming from his mouth

"What a surprise! You didn't tell me you were coming"

"I wanted to fully implement the idea that i'm always watching" fantastic

"I'm well aware, but thank you for the reminder" My fists curl as I attempt at sustaining my annoyance

"Care to tell me what the fuck happened out there?"

"I braked too early into the last corner, there was no time left to improve after"

"Do you realize how embarrassing that is? I thought you were better than this" He grabs ahold of my wrist before I can step away, dragging me away from the public eye

"You're hurting me, let go" I twist my wrist in an attempt to get him to let go although it only leads to him tightening his grip

"This is what happens when you don't perform!"

"Dad!" I hate being in pain. It reminds me that no matter how much I pretend, it's the one thing that will always be real.

"I didn't spend countless hours in the rain, and the blistering heat for you to throw away everything I taught you!" He throws my arm out of his grasp as if burnt by my skin, "You're the same selfish brat you were as a child" Disgust grows on his face

I usually never feel small, I've always felt that I carried myself with just the right confidence to convince others, no matter what I was thinking inside although right now, there isn't an ounce of confidence inside of me

"It was one mistake." The second the words leave my lips I feel a burning sensation across my cheek. He slapped me.

"One mistake can cost you hundreds of achievements. Get yourself together"

"I won't make it again" I hate feeling weak. I'm disgusted with myself as I progressively feel more worthless.

"This is why I worked more with your brother. I knew you never had what it takes" My chest feels like it's closing in on me, once he leaves the room I allow myself to fall to the ground

I need to get myself together.

You're acting pathetic Alethia