Too explore and discover who we truly are

chapter 35

Bella pov

Thing I showed him each and every time he saved me.

Then what he told me before I kissed him that first time and what I thought at moment and felt and what made my decision it was him and I had to try and see if it was really you and take the chance and get my as thrown damn it but hell I had to fucking try who better to have my first kiss with my knight in shining armor and keeps trying to save and protect me and say shit like that hell yes first kiss.

Then the minute I touched your lips I knew then. I did not get thrown and it was all true and then that surge.

I knew you didn't feel me get overwhelmed that second but I did and locked it up and I was scared ass hell and I was pulling away.

Scars first! Being short second! Ugly third! My past fourth. Oh let's not forget my defense mechanism kicking in. Oh the chance of not being able to have children oh yeah asshole humans because they thinks you're psychic and your not.

"But baby I didn't see that and part of that I didn't know at the time some of the human part and the defense mechanism but I didn't care and I tried to tell you that and keep telling you that. I got to see and know the person on the inside first because I never got to see what was on the outside because I had to focus what was on the inside all the time to protect you damn it. All I wanted to do is protect you and keep you safe since I found you. You went straight to my bedroom to protect you I felt it was my mission baby. You were not awake I didn't hear your mind or see your eyes all I felt and sense at that moment and those two things never happen to me before. You snuck up on me. I read minds baby! Didn't remember who I was when I was a kid when I woke up. But this brain was smart and I was a hard ass and I was the way I was because of it. I couldn't get close to no one like this and I stayed away from my family because I hated hearing their thoughts all the time." I can understand that.

"So with you it was so different in so many ways. That's why sometimes I add wham too. Because sometimes some times how things hit me when I feel you like that. It's mind blowing and amazing at the same time. To feel you like that." I had an idea in my head and smiled his favorite smile and tipped my head to the side.

I played the song homecoming queen by Kelsey Ballirni and I made sure I repeated it.

Then I showed him each image of how it made me feel like that and gave him that emotion and what I felt at each moment beginning from when I started from a child.

I even covered his mouth with one hand and the other went into a stop sign in front of our faces so he could see and feel everything and don't stop me and let me just do this just him and let me show him. I wanted to show him everything and give him everything but with different music and everything.

That was what I was going to do for him. Just him and my dad doesn't even know.

Then bow your head through my head on repeat and showed the time from the time I was taken and kidnapped and escaped and his grandma trained me.

At the same time I showed him how I felt felt and the emotions I was going through at every moment.

"Your showing everything and everything you ever felt at ever at each moment and your doing this in your own way aren't you?" He asked me and I nodded my head.