Too explore and discover who we truly are

chapter 24

       Bella pov

All of a sudden it started to get hard to stay awake and I started going in and out of it.

One minute I heard myself screaming and crying in pain and heard Edward talking trying to figure out what to do.

Then everything went dark. Then I could barely open my eyes and I was screaming pain and I started screaming again and then everything go black again.

I kept doing this now. It was weird. It was like I was trying to fight so hard to stay with Edward and then I wake up and start screaming in pain again.

But it was trying to fight a never ending battle with something else all together.

I was trying to show Edward this and what I was feeling in all the mix when I was awake.

Oh this was so confusing. Something else was happening and was what Edward was talking about and feeling.

Then everything went black again.

      Edward pov

Now she is fading in and out and she's trying to show and trying to send me what she was feeling in all this mix up situation going on with her something else was wrong.

I know that, that's what I'm trying to figure out here God damn!

What part of we can not have SEXUAL intimacy as I put or making love yet because she gave birth to twins and had mild major surgery on top of that after not even  4 1/2 weeks ago.

Ugh! I was tugging on my hair. Then yesterday happened. Oh, this is not happening to me right now.

Now it's to quiet. I look down at Bella and something really off here.

"Baby!" Nothing. I take and gently cup her face and that's when she took a big gasp of air like taking her first breath again.

Then I felt her again. I picked her up and held her against me.

Fuck I hate when she does that. It's scares the ever living fuck out of me.

It just gets really quiet with her and I feel nothing her when she does that. It tears me apart and I just made my decision.

Maybe she's protected just this once because we both need the transfer like when got married.

I tilted my head and placed my hand over her lower stomach and closed my eyes and cleared my mind and just focus for moment to let it just come to me.

Then it did not I snapped my eyes open. Just like our wedding. Oh my God! We didn't complete it because she was pregnant.

There is no way around this and then we have to wait no matter what well I seen other things but yeah. We will not go there. We but alone private in security room clothes at that.

I wiggled my eye brow. I can only connect as one with no making love at times of need and others let's just say it's just stress ball relief because of her powers and we'll my and we'll we can't do anything but clothes more or less sucks but works.

I will have to keep stuff in there though. She started tapping me and I looked down at her.

She was trying to catch her breath again. I pressed my lips to her and she started to breath normal again.

I pulled away and took off her bathroom and picked her up and gently laid her on the bed and I got undressed.

I climbed on the bed and hover above her. "Baby, open your eyes and look at me please." I told her.

She slowly opened her eyes, but couldn't open all the way.

"There's my girl!" I told her. "Now, just keep them those beautiful blue eyes open for me please!" I slowly slid in and when I fully became one with her I had to stop and closed my eyes.