I wanna be torn apart. Ripped open from my ribs as they slowly open as my organs spill like water. Not in a Romantic way Or a platonic way ether. I want my vocal cords to break and fall out of my mouth.I want my nails ripped out of my nail beds as the agony lights me on fire and illuminates me in bitter light.I want my brain played with and torn out of my head turned into putty. Why do I stay with you when you make me feel this way? Because I'm scared that that feeling will leave and replace with guilt and karma. That i deserve it if I leave your painful hold as your sharp nails dig Into my skin. Your cold shackles placed on my wrists as you say "I love you". As your suffocating rope is placed around my legs and arms when you say you want me. When the tight collar with your name on it is strapped around my neck as we confirm our future. I want you to leave me and never come back just so I'd never have to feel this fear and defilement. I never wanna be tied down again that I hope I'd never be promised again that you'd never leave me. For you are a disgusting, pathetic, useless man that will only ruin me and defile me as you guide me into submission. Is it so bad to want more in life? So fucking bad I wanna live my life before I chain myself down? Your a loser and yet your the only one who treats me nicely. I'm sorry but you just came at the wrong time love. I'm not ready. I'm scared and young.
