Longing for you ✔️

Chspter 02

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I wish ..... I wish you would had died. ??? He mumbles last words and went in slumber leaving me Statue on my place. I agreed" he never liked me. He always had carried hate for me. But I never thought that he would wish for my death. I've been facing many things in my life. Literally everyone expressed their hate towards me.  whether him or my own parents. But it's first time " he is wishing upon my death. Which broke my heart into piece making me feel immense pain in my heart. I sobs keeping hand on my mouth and come out from his arms " which were grasping around my waist. I set on the bed and look at his face finding him sleeping peacefully after ruining everything between us. Only one last string had left behind. I thought might now he will change. But seems like we are standing on same place where we were before. Or better to say it gotten worse.

Shivaay I whispered and caresses his hair with my shivering hand making him move in sleep and he took my hand under his cheek.seeing him sleeping so peaceful like a child made me wonder"How can a person behave so ruthlessly 'when he is awake and how he looks innocent on the same time while sleeping. I wish he would behave nice to me for once and treat me as human. But seems like " it will stay my dream only and would never get that which I always longing for.

I hope your wish grants shivaay. I hope I die and then my All pain get fade away and you stay happy. I smiles having tears in my eyes and Pulls my hand back from under his cheek.  I my thumb on his cheek for few seconds and went in the washroom having puffy eyes.

In morning

Whole night I spent laying In the bathtub. For a second even I couldn't close my eyes and kept thinking about his words and gestures. Which straight hit bottom of my heart. No matter how many times" I tried to divert it but always end up thinking about it and made my dry eyes wet again. When I'd got pregnant" i'd thought " might now things will be sort out in my life. Maybe a little love. A tiny bit I'll able to get from him. But god took my that hope as well and and snatched my baby away without showing a little mercy towards him . Now I've been landed on same place where I was before.  I sniffles while having numerous things in my mind. But Nothing is helping me to get peace. Everything has been so messed up. I don't know" what to do and how to handle things. But I've have to. I can't just sit and cry like a loser. I've to start doing things which was doing before. I don't wanna relay myself on  that person " who don't wanna see me in his life ever and wants me to be dead. I closed nh eyes tight and comb my hair fastly for removing tangles from them. It will pain to normal person if someone would pull her hair like that. But i don't feel anything. Nothing is affecting me at all. And maybe it's because the Chern in my heart is more deep than anything esle and I'm feeling all numb in my whole body. Suddenly I gasp " when I l heard shuffling sound from behind. I turn and found him Sitting on the bed rubbing his forehead. Seems like he have gotten headache because of heavy drinking. 

Anns can you get me lemonade.   He murmur  still tossing his fingers on his forehead. First I felt to ignore him and leave from here. But  my heart didn't let me and immediately went off to get drink for him.

In kitchen

I'm making drink for him when pinky my mother in law entered " who seems like didn't except me to be here and look at me shockingly.

What you doing here anika.  At this time you should have been on the bed.  Doctor has strictly asked you to take rest.  She says looking at me worriedly making me sigh. 

I'm fine.  I've enough  rested. Don't wanna do more.  I says emotionlessly filling the glass with lemonade. 

Are you fine right. Your wounds still looks little fresh. She Says softly carsssing my head .