Shepherds lamb

Beautiful girl..

                                                                                                  She's so amazing....but is it the right amazing for me

It's been a few days since my 1st day and.  Cristina Yang...the girl who I had my eye on is now on my mind ......things that make her amazing are... her hair...she's so serious yet funny and smart she doesn't get people sometimes like me.....I get told that's bc I'm autistic but if it happens to Cristina  at least that part of ir makes me normal , one thing iv always wanted to be  , I went home the night after the 1st day told. A few of the boys  Thay said I had to "ask her out " I don't know how to do that i bearly new how to ask to go to the bathroom in highschool-

I think  back to highschool  a lot of people ask people out then-  then I rember I didn't ask anyone out in highschool- I had just transitioned into the normal school because special education wasn't challenging me enough nether did mainstream but yet we move on when Derek was in highschool  he liked this girl arlina ruson he got her , flowers and chocolate and stuff- so that morning I went to the lovely flower shop the woman was all smiley and she asked what I was after today

I explained to her I wanted to buy some flowers in order to ask a girl out "well it's best to get flowers to best display how you feel for the lady In question! " she suggested....but I don't know how I feel about her she's pretty but like......that's it......I don't know anything else..."uhh...pink and red...?"  I ask she gose and picks a few then I see...lovely lovely roses...in every color some of them. Must of been fake due to real roses not being able to be those colours but still....I saw these blue ones that match our scrubs perfectly... I chose those....and I lay with the last bit of money I had ...I don't get any more money then till I wanna say end of week...can't be certain

I take the flowers to work with me  I see Cristina getting ready in the locker room while chatting to Meredith , I get ready and tallk to George , I like George  from yesterday we'v became sort of friends gonna go for a drink later this week , I slip on my crocs and go over to Cristina "hi ! Uh idk if you know me but I'm Auden Shepherd!! We where in med school together saw you around a few times uh imma just cut to the point I got you these! And wanna go out sometime? " she looks at me then back at gray "uhh thanks- I'll get back to you on that one " she answers i smile and head back over to my locker era

I hear yang and gray start to laugh " Auden no! He's a simpleton  the boy had a brake down during a lecture because of a light flashing! " she laughs George looks at me I leave and slam the door behind and I go to Derek  luckily I was assigned to him today  "what do you want " he asks I explained everything that happened , Preston Burke  who was next to my brother at the time looks up at me  then back down at his clipboard "seriously?  Didn't think Auden shepherd was all that into girls " Derek laughed and pushed me a bit "well...."  I say Derek looks at me and takes me into a room

"Right I'm no longer dr shepherd neurosurgeon. , I'm Derek your big brother- so how do you feel about Cristina " he saying while sitting d down in the stand lounge. Mentioning me to sit next to him , so I do "she's pretty and I respect her and she's smart......that's it that's all I ever feel for woman " I admit