Shepherds lamb

Life moves on

                                                                                                                 She might not be the right amazing for me..

I carry on with work as normal that day , me and Meredith gray where on a case with Derek...just my luck I have to spend the best portion of the day with the girl I got rejected by best friend- just put me out of my misery why don't ya. As soon as i could u was down in that locker room grabbing my backpack- the bag I always have with me even tho there's not much inside iv been carrying around this exact bag since high school  at this point i don't know what's still in there  , a water bottle-  some old note books  a few books my old "friends " tried to get me to read  ...Thay where my friends I guess-...well- we all got bullied- quite badly  to the point the teachers put us in a classroom for lunch-  Thay called it the safe room- where all the vulnerable outcasts where sent to prevent school lawsuits

I wallk out of the big hospital doors to be met by pounding rain , could this day get any worse?  I sigh  and brace myself for the long wallk back to the house witch after the day I had? Really wasn't ideal I take my time wallking even if I have to risk hyperthermia.. i wallk across a bridge I take a second to sit on the edge of it and watch how the rain water meets the water below . I flap my hands  stimming's trying to regulate myself as wet clothes are a sensory nightmare but not as much as the loud crowded dnd house that was waiting for me ..I pull out my phone and call Derek  to see if I could stay at his place , no answer that's where I feel a hand on my shoulder shocking me to turn round

"Your not doing what I think your gonna do are you!?!? " a worried familiar voice says from behind me. I turn around to see George both of his hands now on my shoulders now like he was holding me back , I push him off I hated the pressure on my shoulders it made my skin crawl  "you can't do this!! There's uh more to live for!! That waters cold-" he explained...did he think I was trying too?... I wasn't not at all I sit there not moving "I'm a good swimmer.!" He shouts  i rember that one scene from titanic I smile but I have already turned back around so he can't see that "The fall alone will kill you.! " I respond quoting Rose , I think he's seen titanic too  as he responds with "It would hurt. I'm not saying it wouldn't. Tell you the truth......I'm a lot more concerned,about that water being so cold." I giggle , I look down "How cold?..." I ask  fully getting into character

So is George  as I hear him take off his left shoe "Freezing. Maybe a couple degrees over."  At this point  we shoud be casted as Jack and rose (even tho im a guy-)  "You ever, uh..ever been to Wisconsin?" My Jack asked  " Wh at?" I responded trying my best to mimic. Rose but also save some of my masculinity  "Well, they have some of the coldest winters around. I grew up there, near Chippewa Falls. I remember when I was a kid, me and my father, we went ice fishing... ...out on Lake Wissota. Ice fishing is, you know, where you--" I realise  George must of watched this movie so many times to be able to quote it- , it was my special interest for a while , i could quote the whole movie if needs be  "I know what fishing is!!  " I keep the scene going trying not to laugh but I can hear slight comfustion in his voice as he says "Sorry. You just seem like, you know, kind of an indoor girl.uh- guy?  Anyway, I....fell through some thin ice. And I'm telling you...water that cold,like right down there... ...it hits you like 1000 knives stabbing you all over your body. You can't breathe.You can't think."Least not about anything but the pain." As he takes his other shoe off

"Which is why I'm not looking forward to jumping in there after you. Like I said......I don't have a choice. I guess I'm kind of hoping you'll come back over the rail well the..come back to the right side of the bridge ......and get me off the hook here." He continues  "your crazy! " I laugh again " That's what everybody says but...
...with all due respect, miss...sir...?  I'm not the one hanging off the back of a ship here.Come on. Come on, give me your hand. You don't want to do this.......?" I can hear the confusion grow , I take my hand off the bridge like rose too her hand of the rail  and u turn round  and get off the bridge  the worry still stained on George's face "u-uh- y-you can't do t-this ". He stutters  as the rain beats down on us harder  " then what as all that?...?" He asks  I hand him his shoes  and he puts them back on "I was....chilling...then saw the  perfect opportunity to do my acting skills-" I explain , he looks up at me embarrassed

"No one can know we just did that-  anyways why are you sitting in the rain- , a sane person would yk go home-...well- I'm guessing you have one- "  he gets closer to me. And I explain why I don't wanna go back  he nods ". Sounds fun and crazy at the Same time , well- the dnd sounds fun...." He says as I fix my backpack " we get too angery sometimes..." I explain   " you could stay at my place if you want- well it's not really MY place it's kinda a  house mate situation " he offers to me anything was better  then my place , I keep stimming the feeling if the wet clothes fineally hit me  George looks down at my hands "uh- how do I help-" he asks , there not much you can do to just help bc  you can't just stop autism " you can't it's just  I hate the wet - " I say. Trying my best to explain  he nods but I know he doesn't really get it but he's trying

He pulls his jacket off  and we hold  it over both of our heads  and start to run , it dosnt help with the feeling of my already wet clothes but it's nice that he tried to help  we  run down the streat laughing untill we get to the front door