You'll be mine

Don't Leave Me

Tw: accidental cannibalism 👨‍❤️‍💋‍👨

Fyodor POV

I had just arrived to my beloved's casino, on my way to give him the cookies I made. I walked over to his office and knocked on his door, eager to see what he'd say about them. "Hm? What are you doing here Fyodor?" Sigma asked me, he sounded tired or like as if he had just been crying but that's none of my concern.

"I baked you some cookies, I hope you enjoy them my beloved~" I said, hoping that he'd enjoy the cookies. "Ah, thanks Fyodor..." he replied, it's clear he's still mourning over Nikolai's death yet I just wanna shut him up and kiss him.

I watch as Sigma runs his fingers through the rim of his desk, fidgeting around. He seems nervous and anxious but the only thing I can picture are having his hands around my coc- "Fyodor, do you think I should cut my hair" sigma interrupted, eyeing the cookie I brought him.

I thought about it for a while before answering his question "You should cut it medium length..." he smiled a bit after I said that but it didn't really look genuine... Nikolai's death wasn't supposed to affect him that much...

I watched as he reached over to eat one of the cookies, my face lighting up. Sigma chewed on the cookie for a bit before looking over at me "What recipe did you use for these? They taste different..."

He's so innocent... if only he knew what he was actually eating...

"Just a special recipe, are you enjoying them?" I asked, hoping for positive feedback. "They taste a bit...off... But they're not too bad" Sigma responded, looking hesitant about eating any more.

Sigma POV

After Fyodor left after some time, I went over to the bathroom the throw up. The cookies were disgusting!! They tasted like they were rotting and they had this metallic after taste to them... Is he trying to poison me?! I went back over to my house and changed into something more comfortable as I layed down in my bed.

Why did Fyodor feed me those? Why has everything felt so strange and eerie ever since Nikolai?- No... Ever since I met Fyodor...

I try to gather my thoughts by writing them down into my journal, in hopes I can feel some ease from it... I wrote them down with a fountain pen on my lavender journal that Nikolai had bought me that has a bunch of cute designs on the pages and came with cute stickers. God I miss him so much... Why did he leave me when I most needed him...?

I wiped my tears with my sleeve, trying not to get any pages wet. After I was done writing, I put my journal away and just stared at my wall. My life feels as if it lacks meaning- like a part of me is missing now that he's gone... I have Fyodor but there's something about him that...makes me feel like throwing up...

I know I should break up with him but part of me feels like that'd be betraying Nikolai since he was the one who set me up with Fyodor in the first place...

I don't wanna think about this anymore... I went over to my pantry and took out some wine and poured some to myself. I began just mindlessly drinking wine until I feel something while I stared off to space, completely exhausted and drained both physically and mentally.

I finally blacked out after a while and fell unconscious after drinking over half a bottle of wine in one sitting.

Fyodor POV

I was sitting in my bed, drinking some tea as I read some poems. I'm so glad my dearest like the cookies I made him~... I had Ivan teach me how to bake just for him~!!

I should make him some more soon using Gogol's brain~!! Or would that be too much...? Oh well, I mean if he misses him THAT much then surely he'd be happy eating him, no? I just want to see a smile on Sigma-kun's face, I want him to smile at me the same way I used to see him smile with Nikolai through the cameras...

Why can't he look at me like that? Is it so hard to do? All he needs to do is have me as his number 1 priority... This ecstatic self torture of sitting back as my beloved refuses to look at me that way is killing me... I can't stand it... What am I even doing...? I'm gonna end up bringing myself to my breaking point at this rate... I need to do something...

I get up from my bed and I go check the cameras. Sigma-kun seems to be asleep... His mouth slightly parted open as he drools in his sleep, oh how I wish his mouth was on something else~... Now that I think about me and him haven't had sex yet despite having dated. I of course won't fuck him senseless now that he's asleep, I wouldn't get any reactions from him that way.

But I'd of course fuck him with when he's conscious and with consent of course, I'm not some kind of monster.... But I do wonder if he's ever fucked with someone before... Oh who am I kidding? He looks like a total slut, of course he has. I wonder if I could bring in some kinks into- That's not what I'm focusing on right now...

How should I make sigma-kun fall love me the way he loved Nikolai...? Should I act more like Nikolai? No...He'd just get suspicious of me like that... Although I could probably find a way to make him lose brain cells so he could trust me more- I know! I'll just hypnotize him. Nothing can go wrong with that now, can it?

But how do I trick him into getting hypnotized? It surely won't be too hard right? But he's not stupid... No, I'll just scrap that idea for now but I'll go through it if it comes down it it...

A/N

So like I know it's been a teeny tiny bit of time since I've written a new chapter so mb 😣😓  Pretty please bear with your dear author 😞 idk if I've mentioned this before but sigma got a house by selling dazais left kidney trust me I saw 😽

Word count: 1078 !!