You'll be mine

You Taste So Good

TW: mentions of suicide and sh!!

Fyodor POV

As soon as I saw Sigma fall unconscious, I shut my laptop and I drove over to his house, Sigma-kun's door was unlocked, he's so forgetful sometimes it's adorable~!!

I was instantly greeted by the sight of my dearest laying unconsciously on the kitchen, he hasn't regained consciousness yet so that was a good thing. I still had time.

I pulled out a syringe from my pocket and I began taking some of Sigma-kun'a blood and I made sure I didn't take enough blood to hurt him but enough blood to last me a while. I put the blood I retracted from my beloved's arm into a jar, surely I have enough blood to make so pasta, right? I've been doing this regularly but normally while Sigma-kun's just fallen asleep naturally but I just couldn't handle myself this time, I needed his blood~!!

Waiting for Sigma-kun to fall asleep naturally takes too long given how terrible my darling's sleep schedule is, I swear he just has insomnia at this point. I've been talking to Nikolai about my dearest Sigma-kun and he says that I should try to befriend Sigma-kun so that he can at least learn my name.

I genuinely don't know why Kolya gave me that advice since I know for a fact that psychotic, bitchass clown has never been in a single relationship before. Although, Kolya is friends with Sigma-kun so I could try to get Kolya to introduce me to Sigma so that he might be able to get to know me and he might even fall for me.

Nikolai calls me delusional whenever I talk to him about my fantasies about Sigma-kun but I know damn well this motherfucker cannot be the one talking when he's even worse than me.

I put my thoughts together and I put the jar of my dearest's blood in my bag before he can wake up and I make sure to leave no trace of me ever even being here.

Sigma POV

I woke up feeling dizzy and lightheaded, I felt a sharp pain on my arm and as soon as I look down at my arm, I see a bloody bandage on it. The bandage had a cookie printed on it and it's cute so like I'm not really complaining but how did I get hurt?

Why was I bleeding in the first place? Was that cut already there? I don't remember cutting myself on my arm though so it's weird... I don't even remember how I got here. I'm scared. I don't feel safe. I don't feel safe anywhere anymore. I don't even feel safe at my casino anymore...

I haven't been going to my casino lately and I've just stayed here and stayed curled up in a corner while questioning my existence. Kolya told me that he's worried for me which is strange coming from him. Is he finally seeking therapy or something? I really need to see his therapist...

Sometimes I wonder why I'm still alive, why none of my suicide attempts have ever been successful. I've been clean for 3 days but I feel like shit and I wanna relapse. I can't take this shit anymore...

I never feel safe no matter where I'm at and I keep getting sent weird and lewd shit! I keep randomly passing out and it terrifies me and I just wanna feel safe again!!

I go to my bathroom and I take out my razor. I unbutton my pants and I lower them down to my thighs, I begin to slit my thighs and I start sobbing. It hurts like hell but no matter what, I can't seem to quit it. I fucking hate this, what did I do to deserve this?! I never asked to be created, I just wanted a family and instead I'm being tormented like this!!

I just want this feeling to go away, I want to feel safe again. I want someone to hold me and make me feel safe... I have no one to turn to for comfort except Nikolai but he honestly needs help way more than I do so I have no idea how he'd be helping me...

Fyodor POV

I hummed happily as I cooked some pasta, the jar of blood I collected from Sigma-kun ready to be poured into the noodles. As I made the sauce, I made sure to add more blood than the actual ingredients in my sauce so that I could taste my beloved's exquisite tasting blood even more.

Sigma-kun's blood always tasted way richer and more exquisite whenever I'd turn it into my special ingredient for my tomato sauce~!!

I took a spoon and I tried the sauce to see if it was missing anything. I almost started drooling once I tasted it, my dearest's blood tasted incredible when it was combined with tomato sauce~!! I poured the sauce on the noodles and I happily ate my pasta knowing how my darling's blood went into this

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