SECRET LOVE {Rafe Cameron}

Chapter ten

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I was sitting on my bed thinking about what just happened. I can believe I let that happen. I was freaking out on my bed because I let Rafe motherfucking Cameron touch me. And it wasn't in a gentle-friendly way. Or something like this.

I'm not saying I didn't enjoy it but I felt so guilty. Like I've just committed a crime. How am I going to explain myself if my friends find out about this. And I obviously cannot show my face near him because he'd wanna talk about it and I don't wanna go that way. I don't want a relationship right now and especially with HIM.

I just hope I can get away from visiting tannyhill today. Because it would be the most awkward thing in my life. And the worst part is that I don't even know what we are right now. I hate him so badly but yet I let him touch me. I'm so pissed at myself right now. I guess I haven't felt a men touch since I broke up with Dan.

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-Sophie honey! You ready?! - my dad shouted from downstairs

-dad I don't think I'll be able to go! - I responded hoping he won't force me to

-what do you mean?! You promised - he said loudly so I'd be able to hear from upstairs

-I know but I am just not feeling very well

-well what's going on?

-my stomach hurts - I said hoping my most common lie would work

-is it that bad?

-dad please! You can go by yourself just let me stay home! - I was started getting pissed off

-okay fine! Get well honey - he said and I heard front doors shutting

Thank god! I don't know what I'd do if I'd have to talk to Rafe tonight. I cannot wrap my head around what happened between us. One minute we were fighting and the other heavily making out on my kitchen counter. Geez.

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*bzzzz*

I heard my phone ringing but it was so far away from me. I still tried to reach it without coming out my bed.

*bzzz bzzzzzz*

-oh for fucks sake - I unfortunately had to get up

"HALO?" - I said annoyed

"Woah, someone's in a mood" - JJ said

"You interrupted my alone time so yeah, call it whatever"

"Sure, anyways. Wanna go out with me surfing?"

"Shit I'd love to but I can't" - I said disappointed

"Damn, why's that?"

"I got away from going to tannyhill with my dad by saying my stomach hurt, so if he sees me out I'm simply fucked"

"Shit that's a bummer, whatever if u change your mind just gimme a call"

"I won't but okay" - I laughed ironically and hung up

I'm not very happy that I couldn't go, but I'm fine with all the issues I have right now. Don't have to have more.