17 | geminifourth

28. ♾️

Yes. It was the day.

It was the day i've been waiting for all my life.

The last 5 years i spent with the man i loved weren't the best years. But i knew that, after this, this was going to be good. Our journey was just getting started.

I still couldn't believe it.

It was the day of my wedding.

5 years ago, i imagined this day differently, and probably.. a little sooner than this.

The wedding me and Gemini wasn't even a wedding. It was just a little ceremony which made me so disappointed.

Seeing Gemini unhappy while marrying me was my biggest heartbreak.

I had so many heartbreaks because of him actually. You might think that, getting remarried right now, means that i forgot everything.

I will never. We grow from our ashes. I will never forget the things i have lived, but i will also cherish the new ones we will have.

Today, i felt like i was reborn. It didn't feel like being Nattawat Titicharoenrak today. I felt like, i still was the 18 year old with a cute boyfriend, and many dreams of marrying him.

Being a Titicharoenrak never felt that way.

I was always me. In these couple of years, i was a Jirochtikul. I never felt like a part of Gemini nor his heart. But i gave him the chance to prove himself and i was sure he will do it. That's why i agreed on remarriage.

I was getting ready with my friends by my side. They all insisted that i should get ready quickly. I didn't want to walk down the aisle alone. I wanted to have Gemini by my side. I wanted to walk to our journey together.

Fuck the traditions. I want my man next to me.

I was wearing a white suit, which had no sleeves. I was wearing a pearl necklace and matching earrings. I honestly thought that i looked beautiful, and my friends' reaction prove me that.

My excitement was so overwhelming that i was scared to wake up. I really thought this was a dream. I thought i would wake up to the same Gemini again. I was drowning in my thoughts.

When i was fully ready, Dunk called me and said:

"Get yourself together Fourth, Gemini is coming to the room."

I've been hearing him the whole time actually. He begged Phuwin and Dunk to let him inside but they didn't let him in. I wanted to see how he looked, i had the exact view of his outfit. He told me about it 3 years ago, and i always dreamed about it. I bet, he looked gorgeous. He never looked bad.

"Cough! Cough! Mister Norawit you may now see your pretty bride."

I laughed at Force's words and just then, i heard the door open. I turned around and i spotted my friends run away to give us some space.

Gemini didn't have the courage to look at me. He was looking down. And damn, he looked just how I imagined. He also had a bouquet on his hand.

He finally inhaled and exhaled. Then, he turned his gaze to me. In a moment, he totally froze down. I looked at him, panicked, as he placed his hands to his face after seeing me.

"Gem..?"

I slowly walked up to him, and i heard him sob. I smiled and held his hands.

"You-you look extremely beautiful. I hate myself right now. I hate myself because i could never see your beauty. I was never the best husband. I was awful to you, and i can't stand that you gave me a chance to be with you again."