let Me hold You | Herophine Fiction (English)

31.touches

{hero}

How on Earth i got the courage,i don't know.I guess i just opend my mouth,telling her all things that happend in club,except the words girl said to me in restroom..
I felt betrayed.To me?Her?I don't know.
Clearly my mind wasn't working very well.

"So then i walked here.." I finish and she finally nods,making me look at her.I've been playing with my hands while speaking,i couldn't even look at her.

She's wearing a sweat pants and a tshirt,her hair formed in a messy bun.

She stays still,and i feel i've to say it."I'm sorry Jo.I didn't mean to..I just..I don't know what had gotten into me that moment.Please." I plead when she keeps her silence.I give her if she's mad with me.I'm mad with myse-

"What made you to stop her?" She asks,looking to me.I look at her confused.𝘞𝘩𝘦𝘳𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘭 𝘥𝘪𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘧𝘳𝘰𝘮?𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘭𝘥𝘯'𝘵 𝘴𝘩𝘦 𝘣𝘦 𝘢𝘯𝘨𝘳𝘺 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘮𝘦?𝘚𝘩𝘰𝘶𝘵𝘪𝘯𝘨,𝘴𝘤𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘮𝘪𝘯𝘨,𝘴𝘭𝘢𝘱𝘱𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦 𝘪𝘯 𝘧𝘢𝘤𝘦?𝘈𝘴𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘮𝘦 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬 𝘰𝘶𝘵?

"I mean it Hero." She says a bit softer,as if she's reading my thoughts.I look at her and she seems determined to hear me,she is really asking me to answer.

"I..I couldn't stop my inner thoughts reminding me i have a deal with you?" I ask,unsure.I cannot believe her actions yet.She's sitting next to me,not even putting up a fight because of what happend.Simply sitting next to me,not even staring at me with distgusted eyes or whatever when here i am feeling disgusted with me.
𝘞𝘩𝘺 𝘪-

"If i'm correct,you felt it since first..That it's wrong thing to do." She whispers and i nod,ashamed as fuck.She says as if she's talking to a little boy who got in trouble,not a twenty-five year old ass grown up ME.

"So you got your first lesson of this fake-couple thing.That the loyalty is something very important to take care of..Unless you don't want to be.It needs you to be logic.You've to know why are you somehow trapped in that situations,you wanted yourself or it just happened.If the first,then it means you're not loyal,as bitter-blunt as it sounds.But second one happens to show some loyalty,i guess.Because you can reject people,reminding them you 𝘢𝘳𝘦 with someone." She speaks,having me under the tenderness of her voice.Then she looks me again.I am truely spelled,am i not?Tell me how not to be.
She's gotten the blue eyes.

𝘍𝘶𝘤𝘬𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘴𝘩𝘪𝘵,𝘪 𝘴𝘰𝘶𝘯𝘥 𝘱𝘰𝘦𝘵𝘪𝘤.

"What happend in that restroom cannot happen Hero.Not when you're truely with someone.I'm saying because finally,there would be someone who wants to be with you..And you..You are loyal actually.Yes you slipped a lot but,at last moment you pulled yourself together.Also,when you like someone,you cannot look at others.It's just..Impossible for you." She smiles.

"You've been around the block,huh?" I finally smile.
She made me smile in the worst moment.The moment i thought i fucked up everything and she'll be done with me and our deal.
"No.People showed me that." She answers,getting me off gaurd.Silence falls in,and i break it after a minute.She has something in her..I don't know what,it makes me open up to her about anyone and anything.

"When was your first kiss?" She looks me surprised.
"What?"
"Your first kiss.Who and when?" I ask again but when she stays silent for two minutes,i shake my head.

"Don't tell me you didn't!" I laugh as she giggles,my eyes thanking the darkness of her house.I don't want her to notice how i'm looking at her giggling mouth,imagining her lips not be kissed in all these years,even though i know it's not possible.