Ellipses and Eclipses

📵 GHOSTED 📵

Friends grow.
Friends go.
A sad reality for some,
A small thing for some.
Until you realize one day
you need a friend,
but seems like all of them went.
I remember friends
from years ago
but I no longer have
the courage to speak to them.
The gap has grown big
and I can never come close
to closing the gap so
I close them like a book
that I finished reading.
I am sorry If I was
the friend that grew,
the friend that went.
If I can turn back time
I am not sure I will never
make the same decisions.
Because I had my own
battles to fight alone,
monsters inside my head,
visions that want me dead.
I was too afraid to
inconvenience you all.
For unlike what some may think,
I was not a bad friend.
I may not be there
on your birthdays,
on shopping sprees,
on weekend getaways,
on facebook memories,
But I did what I did
to protect you all.
You may forget me
You may hate me
You may make fun of me
You may make stories about me.
God knows my heart
And he definitely saw me
crying on days I miss a friend
crying on days I want to be dead
But to you I was just an old friend
No longer worth your time
so I was ghosted.

🌻 YUYU

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