letting u go.... 💔

i don't wanna listen

Yn pov..

I woke up and sat straight on my bed, rubbing my eyes I looked around my room... Another shitty day 🥲I pushed the duvet off my bed and made my way to the bathroom

After taking a good 30 mins hot shower here I'm doing my morning routine...i wore something comfy today as I decided that I'll not go to work today....i just don't feel like to go anywhere...I'll text my besties about it.After I was done I went down , making my way to the kitchen to make breakfast but i saw hong-jo oppa serving our breakfast... I smiled and went to him... Feeling my presence beside him, he looked up and greeted while smiling.. I smiled back and greeted him too...

"Here, breakfast is ready.. Sit and eat properly hmm? " He said smiling and handing me my plate.. I gladly took it and smiled at him and started eating.. He too sat down and started eating..we were talking about random stuff while talking after we were done... Once we were done,He hugged me and made his way to the door , ready to leave for his work... I already told him that I won't be going to work today and he said it was fine and told me to take rest... After he went away .. I went to the living room and sat on the couch... Taking my phone out of my pocket , I texted in our group named "partners in crime"

'Hey guys I wanna say that I won't come to work today.. . I'm not feeling well🤧'

Typing that I switched off my phone and turned on the TV watching some kdramas

Tho my eyes were on the screen but my mind was thinking about him
Why? Why did he came back? Why he came back again? To make me feel worthless again? To make me feel helpless again? To make me feel useless again? Why he is here again? To make me hate myself again? To make me depressed again? I can't and won't be able to handle myself again... He broke me brutally once and if he does again I'll lose myself

I sighed and thought to go outside to refresh my mood

Meanwhile jk's pov

After seeing yn.. My only thought is how can i win her back! How??I desperately want to go and see her but my hectic work is not letting me do it !! And ik even if I go and meet her she won't even look at me 🤧anyways now I'm in the car going to the location where we need to shoot the other run bts episode... Ngl the games are fun tho hehe....

After few mins

An pov...

It was there break time and after having their lunch,all the boys had went to the nearby park!

Yn pov

I'm here in the park, sitting on the bench looking at those kids who are having fun with family and friends, I sighed... I was so happy till yesterday now what happened suddenly? Why all of sudden he appeared of nowhere and making me feel like this again? How the hell he still has that impact on me?? Ughh!! I'm going crazy

Jk pov

My hyungs were clicking pictures of the nature and jin hyung was clicking his pics only... Don't mind him.he is self obsessed I mean I won't blame him either after all he is WORLD WIDE HANDSOME 🤭 well we are wearing masks so no worries and anyways there were not many people tho so we were safe.... I was sitting on the bench but suddenly my eyes fell on a familiar figure sitting not so far from me

I got up and went towards that person and as I expecting she was yn!! She was backfacing me so she couldn't see me... I quickly sat beside her

Yn pov

I was in my thoughts but then I felt a presence beside me. At first I ignored it but that presence felt familiar so i looked up to my side and saw that same doe eyes which I love the most... My eyes widened as I got up and turned to leave but he held my wrist stopping me from going

"Yn, pls listen to me" He softly said 🤧
Neither I turned around nor I said anything
"Yn?" He again called me
I was trying to free my wrist from his grip but he held it tightly...
I stopped struggling in his grip and we stayed in complete silence

"There is nothing to listen Mr jeon" I said coldly
After saying he left my hand and walked away. I also left from there. Tears started to streaming down on my cheeks without my permission

I reached my house and closing the door and I started crying loudly... Why?? Why?? Why I want to listen to him? Why, knowing he was reason behind my pathetic state back then? Why can't I fvcking move from him yet? It's been two years now? Why can't I hate him? Why I can't stop loving him? Pls god help me! It's getting hard now!! I don't want to feel that way again! I'm scared! I'm scared to listen to him cuz ik I'll forgive him and betray myself.. ' Yn pls listen to me' i remember his words.. No!! I don't wanna listen to anything... I don't wanna listen to him, I don't wanna listen to my heart now

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