A Fresh Start

Chapter 10: Sneaking Out?!?

Pink POV:

( Takes place after Era explaining how he's going to help Pink and Mara get together in secret. )

(There are going to be chapters later 'thoughts' and it is going to show Pink's deep thoughts and feelings over time)

'What am I going to do!?' Pink was frustrated. Era thinks that he likes Mars, which in fact, isn't true.

Era already wants to extricate me from Gen's overbearing protective behavior.

I got a fucking manager breathing down my neck for every little thing because I have to "act like original Pink" or some shit -cough Poppy.

Poppy's always on my case and always says how callow I am and for that reason I should listen to them. Whatever. I am scared to think about how they'll react when they found out I'm a fake, even though I'm not going to tell them it is still a scary thought to imagine.

I am sitting on my bed. The whole room is colorful. Something deep inside me says it's ugly while another side of me says it's just right. I think original Pink's feelings, opinions, and ideologies are merging into me.

I'm afraid to lose myself. Or did I already lose myself?

Sigh "I guess Era is going to misunderstand my feelings forever ..." I say to Poppy while I am laying on my bed.

"It's not bad! This is good actually!!" Poppy says excitedly.

I look at them straight in the eyes. Their eyes show no emotion. "And how is this a good thing"! I somewhat yell but not quite enough for the brothers to hear.

"It's good because the story would fall back on track. Pink and Mara already met at the ball; however, Pink's accident occurred right after!" Poppy says with such an enthusiastic expression then to a bitter and sour one on saying the last part of the sentence.

'Geez not like it's Pinks fault or mine' I think. 'Why does Poppy sound annoyed because of that; shouldn't they feel sad for Pink?' I start to wonder how come Poppy sounds annoyed when Pink's death is mentioned? Shouldn't Poppy be sad?

'Were they even friends before I came in the picture?' That's something that has been coming in my mind for a while. Poppy never mentions their time spent with Pink. It's as if Poppy was just observing. 'Why do I feel that Poppy only cares for the story and not the characters? There's no why, right?'

I shake my head. 'Stop it! Don't think such thoughts! Without Poppy I probably would have already spilled out my secret!' I am somewhat in debt to Poppy since they have been helping me since day 1, even though they were the ones to put me in this mess...

Swoosh The sound of my door opens quietly but quickly. It's Era. Fuck!

"Pinky!" Era half yells. He comes inside with a big smile."Gen-Gen is sleeping right now so let's go meet up with Mara!"

"Uh" I was dumbfounded. Era was going to have me meet up with the skeleton that I don't want to meet up with? "Why?" I said this so confused and in a way that expressed 'why would you even come up with that'.

"Look, Era, I think that we might have a misunderstanding about Mara-" before I could even finish Era quickly goes to me and holds both my hands while saying,"Look, Pink, I know you don't remember him or anyone as much, but he still loves you and I believe that if you hang with him you'll gain your memories for when you were happy."

Era has a determined look in his eyes and a hopeful look. I still tell them I don't remember much of anything before the accident. 

I feel awful for deceiving them. I don't like this feeling.