title: we tried again december 13th, 2023 and still failed.
i tried to convince myself i deserved this but i think we both know that's not true. so i guess i'm typing this because no matter how much i heal or move on, the feeling of never understanding hurts me so deeply, i don't know where the line ends between you love me and you're too selfish to treat me right. so i guess this question along with many others will plague my mind and hurt me until i can become indifferent, which i don't think will be any time soon. and im sure there is so much more for me to talk about the hurt of it all but i think it's safest to leave it at it being love trauma. i want to believe you are healing, i want to believe you actually found good people to be around, i want to believe you're spending your time wisely but it's hard when i thought that before and was wrong, when i got something so cruel.
- N.B (September 22, 2023.)
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