Director of feelings | chaesoo / jenlisa

What are you afraid of?

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Isabel LaRosa - Heartbeat

Where are the remnants of your sober mind, Yoo Sooyoung?

In the trash. There's also pride. Self-esteem. And the real Yoo Jihi.

You should always look irresistible. To hide how lost she was in herself. Sooyoung stopped noticing what was right and what was on the verge of madness. More precisely, she doesn't want to think much. When she comes to realize what she's doing with her life, she'll start to hate herself.

What is Sooyoung ready for her dream? Stop, not like that. What are you ready to do for your obsession? Soo is ready to cripple all of herself. After all, everything is not so easy in this life, right? It doesn't matter how much suffering the desired will bring. But when it turns out to be her. In her hands. Love Park Rosé... What then? Suyeon is scary. What if it's not worth it all?

Yesterday, when Rosé left, she looked at her reflection for a long time. She doesn't recognize herself in the reflection. It's so changed...

She agreed. Looking into her eyes, she said she would do anything for her. For what? To be meaningful. To do something to make Park happy. Will Rose be? Probably. Sooyoung? Never.

It was a mistake. Her agreement. Park Rosé is a favorite mistake in her life. But she won't do what the blonde asks. Although, what's wrong with her request? It seemed to her that nothing unusual. Only Yoo feels like she's going to break after that. Because Rosé will be happy not caring about what will happen to her. Probably? Most likely.

Feels. It's crooked from unpleasant sensations. They wipe her feet on her. The same person every time.

She changed her mind. She will refuse.

She asks to meet, and Park sets up a time at the coffee shop. Sooyoung hates this place, and Rosé is too attached to it. Or maybe to someone?

Sooyoung, coming in, sees Jisoo, who stared out of the window with empty eyes, at the Han River. She doesn't understand. What's wrong with her? How many times has she seen her she always has such a pitiful look that sometimes she even wanted her to smile, because it hurts to look. And on the other hand, she was jealous of her. So feminine and poisonous. How did she deserve Rosé's attention? What's wrong with it that's not in Soo? What wasn't in Jihi?..

"Can I have an American?"Jisoo takes the same look at her.

She blinks a couple of times, as if she was still in her thoughts. But, having quickly come to her senses and apologizes, she fulfills the order.

Sooyoung doesn't hate her. She looked at her and saw a harmless child. It's unlikely that she can stand up for herself like she does. Or seduce. Pretend.

Rosé talked about her simplicity, Soo agrees with her. But in this simplicity she saw something truly beautiful. And only now for some reason she feels sorry for Jisoo. Girls like her deserve to be happy. Just like Sooyoung deserved. She feels sorry for this baby because, looking at her, she saw old Yoo Jihi. She was exactly the same as Jisoo. Dreamy, naive and weak, but hating her existence, and then...

Then Park Roseanne appeared.

Girls like Jisoo deserve to be happy. Girls like Sooyoung... She doesn't know herself.