afterglow | jude bellingham

² ⁴ [Jude won't find out]

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ISADORA'S POV

I'm back in Barcelona and Gavi texted me the other day that he wanted to hang out. I obviously told him yes because we haven't hung out alone in a long time. I just arrived at his house and I go to my trunk to grab the Nike shoes that I bought for him in Madrid. Once I grab them, I make my way to the front door and knock.

I wait for about 10 seconds before he opens it, "hi isa!"

He leans in for a hug and places a kiss on my cheek, "hi gavs, I've missed you so much."

He leads me into the house and tells me to make myself at home. I do, and go to sit on the couch.
"What's in the bag?" he asks as he sits down next to me.

"It's for you!"

He raises his eyebrows a little because he wasn't expecting me to give him a gift. "Why'd you get me something?"

I shrugged because I don't really know why to be honest. I was in the store and saw the shoes and they looked like something Gavi would wear, so I bought them. "I thought you might like them, and I want you to know that I appreciate you."

I knew he felt special now because his posture straightened up, "Did you get anything for the other guys?"

"Nope, just you," I answered.

He smirked and grabbed the bag from next to me. His eyes brightened up a bit once he saw that it was a Nike box and he hurriedly opened it to see what was inside. When he saw that they were some university blue Jordan's, his smile grew wider and he pulled me into a hug. "I love them. Thanks for thinking about me."

I broke into a smile because he looked so joyful, "Of course Gavi. You know you have a very special place in my heart, you were the first one of you guys that I became friends with."

Gavi and I have always had a special relationship, he's the guy that I'm closest to and he's the one that I trust the most.

"I know, and I hope you know that I'll always be here for you." He placed the Nike box back in the bag and moved the bag away from in between us. "So Danna might've told us that you were working on an album...how's that going?"

I laughed, "it's still fairly new, but yeah, I am."

"Will we get free tickets to your concerts?" Of course he wants a free ticket.

"You already know that you will."

He sighs before getting closer to me and putting his arm around my shoulder. I rest my head on him because it's something that we've always done when we've had semi serious talks.

"You know, when you were going through that rough patch, I wish you could've trusted me a little more," he admits.

"What do you mean?"

He takes a couple seconds before answering me, "Like I wish that you came to me to talk about it, but you didn't. You went to Jude instead, and that's fine, there's nothing wrong with that. I just thought that we had a good enough relationship where you would've come to talk about it with me." I didn't know he felt like this.

"We do have that kind of relationship." It's the truth. I'd trust Gavi with all of me.

"Yeah but, you didn't let me be there for you when you were going through your toughest time. Do you know how guilty I feel for it?" 

I listen to him very intently because I didn't know that he thought about it like that. "Why would you feel guilty? There's no reason for you to feel that way."

"Because how could we have such a great relationship when you couldn't come to me to let your feelings out. How could we have such a great relationship if I made you feel that you couldn't come to me. What did I do to make you feel that way?"

I just stare at him in shock because, what?

"You didn't do anything to make me feel that way..."
Great. Now I feel guilty. "You did absolutely nothing. It was me. I didn't want to be a burden to you. I didn't mean to make you feel like it was your fault."

"But you were fine with talking to Jude about it? I don't understand," he says as he gives me a confused look.

I sat up and placed both of my hands on his, "Gavi, you had already listened to all of my relationship problems with Jaden. You know that me trying to make things work with him was not easy. You heard about all of it. When he put me through even more shit, I thought you deserved better than to listen to all of that. And at that time, you were really fighting for your spot on the first team. I didn't want to be selfish and make you feel like you had to help me when you yourself needed as much support as possible."

He stared at me while I was talking and I noticed his eyes got a little glossy, "so I didn't do anything to make you think that you couldn't trust me?"

"No Gavi, of course not," I whispered with sadness in my voice. "I really wish you told me this earlier though, I thought everything was fine between us."

"It is. But I think about that sometimes and, now that we were finally alone I guess I just wanted an answer. But next time somethings wrong, I'll tell you. I promise."

I offer him a smile and kiss his cheek. "Careful there, you wouldn't want Jude to get jealous now would you," he joked.

"I was trying to comfort you, idiot."

He laughs at my response and lays back onto the couch. I notice that he's thinking about something because he's just staring at the ceiling, "what are you thinking about?"

He looks back at me, "just about the night we met."

Oh great. Our secret.

"Can you believe that we've managed to never talk about that night so well." I'm more surprised that he's managed to never talk about it because he likes to talk a lot.

"I'm a good secret keeper, I'm surprised that not even pedri knows about it."

I got a little curious so I kept the conversation going. "How come you haven't told anyone? You're the first one to spill secrets."

"I don't know, I guess no one really needs to know about that. It was between you and me, and we agreed to not say anything. It's not important, right?"

I guess he's right.

"Look, I really just don't want Jude to find out about it. I don't want him to feel a certain way towards you when he shouldn't. You and I didn't know each other at the time and we both had alcohol in our system. We made out in the heat of the moment. The only good thing about it was that it gave us this friendship," I told him.

He nodded, "you're right. And Jude won't find out, I like him. This one will always stay between us. I'm happy that it brought us together though, we're like siblings now."

I scoff at him, "really gavi!? You know Aurora won't like that."

"Yeah...don't tell her I told you that."

I laugh at him and after a couple more minutes of talking, we decide to order food and watch a movie for the rest of the night.

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