Drifted Away - Shinyu from TWS | ✅

To

Dear Nari, 

When you came into my life, I had finally found a light at the end of the dark tunnel I was stuck in. I fought so much to get out of it, but I never realised the solution could be a person, you are the reason I found myself again. 

I have not been feeling well recently. I was coughing more than I did when I had a usual cold so went for a check-up at the community hospital. When the doctors came with a look of sympathy on their countenance, I could already tell my health condition was not at its best. They told me that I have stage 4 lung cancer. 

The reason I hid it from you and Hyeri is because I don't want you to worry about me. I want you to go live life to the fullest, enjoy it, date plenty of boys and drink plenty of nights away. Nari, you are still so young, and I don't want you to rely on your past and move forward, in fact, I want you to put everything behind you. Put us behind you, and move on to discover what else life has to offer. Forget I was there. Forget me, Nari. 

I could not hold back my tears anymore, they found a way to escape my eyes and made the thin paper blotchy. How could I forget him? He was the one who taught me how to love, the only one I finally found comfort in. I did not feel like reading more of what he wrote, but it was the last thing I had of him. 

We both tasted what it was like to feel the worst. Now, I only have a couple of weeks to live. And I have been wanting to do a few things I was always too afraid to try before. Instead of feeling weak, I feel motivated. I am not a coward anymore, Nari, I am not afraid to die. Maybe it is my reality now. As long as I try to forget this fact, it keeps haunting me. But I know what will happen to me and  I am already counting off my days. I will not exist anymore in two weeks. 

I know you will probably keep this letter forever, and I would too. But, unfortunately, this is the only thing I have to give you. 

Maybe we are not to blame. Maybe, life is. Life fucked up everything for us at the worst time possible, and maybe, that's what brought us together. And life, yet again, drifted us away. 

Again, I must be selfish and ask for one last thing from you. In my absence, Hyeri will be alone once again. So, can you take care of her while I am gone? I just know that out of all the people in my life, you are the only one I trust, and I know you will do such a good job that Hyeri won't even realise I am not here anymore. 

Goodbye, Nari. I hope life will bring you as much joy as it brought darkness into you. 

With love, 

Shinyu. 

My heart was broken into a thousand pieces. 

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