Secretly Yours

LXXIX

INT. ROOM - EVENING

7:01 p.m.

Robin blinked and a tear budged out at the edge of her eyes.

Mikey
Why are you crying?

Robin
H-ha?

Mikey reached for her cheek.

Mikey
You're crying.

Robin
Ah . . .
Ikaw kasi.

Mikey
Ako?

Robin
Nagulat ako sa 'yo. First time kasi may nagsabi sa 'kin no'n. I mean, sa pagkakaalam ko na sinabi talaga sa 'kin directly kagaya mo. First time ko . . . ang overwhelming din.

Mikey
I see.

Robin
Hindi mo naman ako inuuto 'no, Mikey?

Mikey
No.

Robin
Promise mo 'yan?

Mikey
Yes, promise.

Robin
Pero nasabi ko naman na sa 'yo 'yong rule ko 'di ba? P'wede mo naman ako magustuhan kaso hindi ako makakapag-promise sa 'yo na mababalik ko feelings mo.

Mikey
It's fine. I don't mind if hindi mo ma-reciprocate.

Robin
. . .

His thumb gently brushed through her cheek and their gazes remained at each other.

7:03 p.m.

Mikey
Please say something?

Robin lightly poked on his cheek.

Mikey
Ano'ng ginagawa mo?

Robin
Totoo ka naman 'no?

Mikey
Yes. Bakit?

Robin
Kasi parang ang hirap maniwala.

Mikey
You know I talked to Kachi before?

Robin
Tungkol saan?

Mikey
How I feel towards you. She's the first one who knew kasi nahalata niya ako tapos next si Ate Gigi.

Robin
Ah . . .

Mikey
When Ate Gigi told me about your rule, I decided to forget about my feelings kasi that time, it's still early and I'm still figuring it out. Pero nakausap ko kasi si Kachi about din do'n sa rule mo and she told me na while I'm still figuring it out, I should allow myself to indulge in my own feelings daw.

Na I should like you if I want to like you and I shouldn't stop myself from feeling things right ahead kasi hindi pa naman ako sigurado.

I asked if her if that would be selfish and she told me kung gano'n daw ba ako magkagusto. Kung selfish ako.

Robin
Hindi naman.

Mikey
Talaga?
Hindi naman selfish?

Robin
Oo, hindi naman.

Mikey
That's good to know.

Robin
Pero kailan ka pala naging sigurado?

Mikey
Before our first date.

Robin
Ha?

Mikey
After our first date.

Robin
After?
So kailan ba talaga?

Mikey
And when we were in Siargao.

Robin
Ano?

Mikey
Last night.

Robin
Kailan ba talaga?

Mikey
And also, right now.

Robin
Mikey?

Mikey heaved a deep breath.

Mikey
Will you consider this as my confession for now? I'm still not that prepared but . . . it's also overwhelming pero I want you to know how I feel, so will you consider? Ulitin ko na lang next time.

Robin
Hindi na, okay na. Gets ko naman. Sigurado ka sa feelings mo sa akin every day bago pa matapos 'yong unang lock-in. Tama ba?

Mikey
Yes. I like you more every day.

Robin
Mikey?

Mikey
Hmm?

Robin
Deserve ba kita?