Heartless Love

Chapter 17- Messages

I woke up later than usual but it was a Saturday so it didn't really matter. I started on some of my homework and finished about 2 hours later.

It was noon now so I decided to go out for lunch. There was a small restaurant on campus so I got my bag and started walking down.

On my way I ran into Levi,

"Hey Clara! You trying to hang out tonight?"

"Oh um I don't know Levi I think I'm going to just chill."

"Oh yeah ok yeah sure maybe another time."

"Yeah."

"Ok um See ya."

"See ya"

That was so awkward. I can only imagine where that could've went.

I finished my lunch and chilled in my dorm the rest of the day and soon enough it was dinner time. I walked to the dining hall to grab whatever they had.

I entered the hall to see Callahan with Emily at a table. I quickly moved my eyes to avoid his. I grabbed a plate and made myself a salad. I sat at a table far enough away from them.

I wanted him to come over here and take me home with him. I've been craving his body after the little interaction that Emily ruined.

I glanced over occasionally and never made eye contact. Maybe it was just him being nice the night before.

I finished my plate and walked back to my dorm. Once I got into the room I shut the door and sighed while leaning against it.

I pulled my phone out of my pocket and pulled up Callahan's contact. I knew I shouldn't call him but I need him. All of him.

The phone rang 8 times and no answer. I texted him,

"Can you come over? Please?"

"No Clara. I can't come over. I'm busy."

"Please I need you."

He left me on read and I shut my phone off. I set my head on my pillow and closed my eyes. Sometimes it was nice to have the dorm to myself.

All of a sudden my phone lit up again,

"I can't be there so you have to do it yourself."

"Touch yourself Clara. I'll help you."

I stared at the messages. I felt that he was here with me waiting for me to start. I took one last glance around the room and moved my fingers down to my underwear.

1 voice message from Callahan

I opened our conversation and played the recording,

"Don't be shy, Clara. Put two fingers in. Pretend they're my cock in you. Mmmh. Pump them in and out for me baby." He whimpered.

Precum slide down my hand when I pushed them in. The end of the recording from him was full of his moaning and sound of his wet cock sliding in his hand.

I messaged him again,

"Cal, you're making me feel so fucking good. I want you here though, right now."

"We both know I can't do that, just do this for me Clara."

Once I had finished I got up and washed my hands thoroughly. Thank god my roommate wasn't home.

I laid back down in bed and wrapped myself up in my blankets, becoming overwhelmed with loneliness.

I wasn't going to let myself cry over him. He had (somewhat) moved on and I was still in love with him. All I was doing was bothering him.

Just then my phone buzzed with a message from Koda,

"Hey"

The message had seemed innocent enough so I replied to him

"Hi"

"How have you been?"

"Eh okay I guess. College is kinda tough lol."

"Yeah I get that haha"

"So what have you been up to?"

"Not much just working and surfing the usual"

"Yeah"

"So would you maybe want to grab a coffee sometime or get dinner with me?"

"Oh um yeah totally just lmk when."

"Okay cool cool"

I smiled like an idiot at my phone. I could hear Koda's voice as I read his message.

"Super cool"

"So maybe tomorrow night? I know it's a Sunday but it we won't be out super late, promise."

"Yeah that sounds good. I'll see you then."

"Alright then. I'll talk to you later."

"See ya"

I set my phone on my nightstand and went back to laying in my bed, slowly drifting off to sleep.

Next morning

I spent most of the day in the dorm trying to catch up on my studying and work for classes.

Rylie was there for most of the day and seemed to be equally as busy with a project.

"My professor thought it would be a good idea to have us do group projects our second week of class." She laughed and rolled her eyes.

Rylie told me she had to go meet with her partners to work on the project and wouldn't be back until later.

I was so glad Koda invited me out. I missed his soft boy vibe and I felt like he would motivate me to stay in college, even though I already felt like quitting.

Rylie left at 3:00 and that left me to grab something to eat and get ready for blonde boys arrival.

I decided to get an everything shower and start getting ready.

I left my room to go to the communal showers. These showers weren't actually that bad, they were fairly clean and had a lot of privacy.

I haven't had an everything shower since I moved into my dorm. It felt so nice taking my time to get ready.

I got out of the shower and dried off. I did some pre makeup skincare in the mirror and went back to my dorm.

I put on a top with lace trim and a pair of medium wash jeans along with my new balance sneakers.

I sat down at my desk that held my schoolwork and makeup, and started my hour long routine.

It was 4:13 when I was officially ready. My stomach was in knots thinking about tonight. Was this a just friends thing? Does he miss me? Do I miss him? Whatever just go with the flow.

I realized we never really settled on a time so I texted him,

"Hey what time did we say we were meeting?"

"Oh um I guess probably around 5:30 ish?"

"Okay great see you then!"

"Yup see ya then"