Chapter 14- Letters

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Koda's POV

The next day

I'm sorry. I don't know what else I can say. I don't know what came over me.

I stopped and crumpled up the paper. I threw in the trash bin on top of all the other papers.

I had to apologize to Clara. I guess I got jealous yesterday. I don't know what she still sees in this Callahan guy.

He treated her like total shit and just to fuck her and leave. I had to keep her away from him.

I'm sorry. Just give me time to explain myself before you send me away. I want to make this work. Whether we're more than friends or not, I like having you in my life. Just please hear me out.

-Koda

Clara's POV

I awoke to tapping on my window. Why was it always the window.

I opened my curtains to reveal a piece of paper taped to the outside of my window. I opened it and read it, thinking it could've been from Callahan until I saw Koda's name.

When I finished reading the letter I looked out my window to see where he was. I didn't see him at all.

"Where are you? You want to talk so let's talk."
I texted him

"Come outside and hear me out please."

I put my phone in my pocket and threw a hoodie on. I quietly crept down the stairs. I didn't expect anyone to be up. It was a Sunday night, almost Monday morning.

I opened the front door to see Koda standing there with flowers.

"Here. These are for you." I could tell he felt bad from his body language.

I sniffed the flowers while I saw Koda nod towards his car.

"Do you want to go for a ride?" He asked awkwardly.

"Sure." I sent my flowers down inside and started driving with him.


"So, you read my letter." He whispered and flashed his eyes over to me.

"So, I did." I replied with and edge of coldness.

"Look, Clara, I'm really really sorry. I didn't mean to be such a dick to you earlier. I just don't want you to let Callahan treat you this way." He gripped the steering wheel.

"He doesn't treat me any  kind of way. He was drunk and it didn't mean anything." I tried explain.

"No, Clara, I think he really does miss you. You need to set some boundaries with him." Koda looked over at me again.

"No, it's fine. I'll just block him" I lied.

"Thank you." He focused on the road again.

"Yep." I looked out the window.


We hung out for another 2 hours just talking and driving around aimlessly. 

He told me about his two sisters, his mom's new husband and how badly he tried him. He also told me about his ex that cheated on him and ended up pregnant.

So that's why he's so worried about me.


Once we got back I thanked him for the talk and walked back inside, waving to him before I shut the door quietly. I grabbed the flowers and a vase and quietly sprinted upstairs.

I put the flowers on my desk, slumped onto my bed, and texted Jolie.


"I just got back from a drive with Koda. Lmk when you get this."

"Omg what happened?"

"What are you doing up this early, Jolie?"

"I forgot to finish my project that's due at 7 am today"

"Oh ok well we talked for a long time. A lot about Callahan. Some good, some bad."

"What does he think about him?"

"He doesn't like him at all. He thinks I should block him but I really don't want to. I know he was drunk when he said all of those things but idk."

"Clara drunk words are sober thoughts. I thought you knew this."

"I know. I guess I'll do something but not yet."

"Clara, let's be honest, he's probably not coming back."

With that last message my heart shattered. It finally set in that he wasn't coming back to me. He probably never would. And why would he?

I shut my phone off and sobbed into my pillow the rest of the night.


I slept pretty well for the fact I stayed up bawling my eyes out most of the night.

My eyes were swollen so I went down to the kitchen to grab an ice pack. My brother was at the counter eating cereal.

"Woah, what happened to you?"He stood up and came over to me.

"Shouldn't you be at work?" I moved away from him.

"No I took today off. Are you going to tell me why you look like you were hit by a bus?" He sort of laughed.

"Wow, you're so nice best brother ever." I smiled and opened the freezer.

I grabbed the ice pack and went back upstairs. I really wasn't in the mood to speak to anyone else for the rest of the day.


I stayed in bed for hours on end watching tv. The only time I got up was when I went to the bathroom. 

It was 4:00 and I decided to get something to eat. I hadn't had anything all day but it didn't bother me. It was a good distraction from everything. 

I walked into the kitchen got the snacks I wanted and went back up stairs.

My life sucks now.



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