The Walk

The message that never came

I need you,

but get rejected instead.

I have to deal alone,

with the shit running through my head.

I cry and cry and cry 

all night long.

Left alone with nothing,

feeling totally wrong. 

My mind is racing,

the past flashing in front of my eyes.

Memories,

 as someone so close to me dies.

I know it's no-one's problem,

just mine. 

But I don't want you to feel bad,

I want you to shine.

All I want you to do

is to take care of me.

Tell me it will be alright,

even when it won't be.

Tell me that with a dark mind

I won't get a positive life.

Tell me that all I need is love

not the shiny knife.

But you won't do that,

since you can't talk now.

But you don't message the other day,

neither the day after and I just think "wow".

I am deciding

if I should just give up or let it go.

But I'm so screwed

that I really don't know.

But in my head,

I'm still screaming your name.

Waiting for the message 

that never came.