_ I'm drowning _

chapter6: Does the killer have a strong motive to kill .

Blood is just a liquid inside a living organism, but it affects it greatly; although there is a heart inside a person, he will not be able to live because he needs blood, just as the human body needs water to live, as well as the heart .But if this blood came out of this person because of another person with his own motives , it is considered a murder in this social environment in which we live, but if it was self-defense, what would it be considered ? .

_He's Black, totally black, " Where am I, is there someone?"
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_"Who is this person, why doesn't he have a face?"".

_"What are you doing don't come close to stopping".

_"I'm afraid not to approach......." .

_"No, no, what is this liquid , it's blood".

_"I'm covered in blood, and where did this person go?" .

_"Damn, what is all this blood?" .

_"Oh my god I feel suffocating, what is this, I'm dying?".If you are going to capture my soul, I welcome you".........

Damn, for the tenth time this week and I think I'm getting closer to this day, I feel really scared, all this week I've been dreaming that there will come a day when I'll be completely covered in blood and the place around me is black and in front of someone who has no face, at first I didn't care about that but now I feel like this day is very close; I'm the one who gives it value so I feel scared, "come on Emma, because nightmares scare you, didn't you live all your eighteen life inside a nightmare that doesn't go away"....... .

Midnight is the time of fear, I try to reassure my mind that there is nothing to fear, but this time it does not respond, it is my heart that sends me warnings of the coming danger, but I do not listen to it and what it dictates, do I regret it later."Where am I, what is this place?"", "How stupid Am I if I didn't philosophize I wouldn't have wasted the way .

_"Wow, I got a delicious meal for FREE", what a strange voice it's a man's voice, Yes, it's right behind me; I really regret that I didn't listen to you, you fucking heart, No, I wish I hadn't philosophized I'm just a fool, well, this is not the time to talk in which I have to find a way to escape from the monster like in the movies.... .

_" Where Are you trying to go,".

_ Damn hold my hand "what do you want get away from me or I'll call the police", "what is this trivial question don't you know the desires of men", damn it, "no, I only know the desires of animals like you"

_ "Damn you, bitch, I tried to be nice to you, it seems that you want to see my other face", "get away from me, dirty"; damn undresses, what am I going to do; I have a scalpel in my pocket; yes, it's time to use it. Keep it for these times already; "this is a gift from me, you dirty animal".

This is for slapping, this is for your stupid talk, this is for trying to assault a minor, I feel good now that I got rid of a dirty animal for society; but I committed a crime and it is inevitable that I will be a murderer.... .

I will burn the body and wash myself in the waters of the Rhone, to which I am close, this is the only solution, if I surrender myself, they will imprison me; and this is a lot .For me, the prison in which I am currently living is enough ... .

At three o'clock in the morning, the time of insomnia, I haven't slept yet, I have two hours and I'm in bed, but this damn sleep doesn't want to come, is it because I became a murderer why am I asking, I know it's the right answer, I didn't kill, I defended myself, and also no one will know because there is nothing in that place, not even a fly, there are no surveillance cameras. I congratulate myself that I did a job for the first time without leaving his remains..... .

Murder , it is hated and shunned in this society because they think they are doing it for fun, revenge, theft or because it is a medicine for mental illness, but sixty percent for self-defense, but they deny this fact; so why wait for them to help, man has a soul. But these animals have two souls , the representative soul that they are human and the true soul of desires ; so hell will be grateful to me for sending a hearty meal..... .