Zosan OneShots collection

My Smile Is Extinct (Problems)

Yes he is the best I’ve ever had
I’ll say it to his face and I’ll say it to his dad
We went to a party at my good friends house

I said kill me now, I want to die

I heard there’s a chance at an afterlife
I might not get let in but at least I won’t be living

Here I am sandwiched between heaven and hell
Oh what, they don’t exist
Oh well I wouldn’t have gotten into the good one

And I still won’t be living to see him with another man
Oh that really, really, really, really wasn’t my plan

I used to ask life to kill me slowly
But now I beg you just get on with it

Yes he is the best I’ve ever had
I’ll say it to his face and I’ll say it to his dad

We went out for dinner at our favourite restaurant, then he reached across and grabbed my hand
I don’t like when they do that it’s always part of the plan

he said I’ve met a boy
Another pretty boy

I said: kill me now, I want to die

Sanji hadn't slept for two days, the black circles around his eyes were evident.

His smile had been extinguished the moment he lost Zoro.

“Yeah, he met another guy. A more handsome guy.”

Obviously he was a little guilty, Zoro wouldn't be such an asshole that he would change Sanji because of appearances.

Zoro was the best person Sanji had ever known, the best boyfriend he had ever had. The blond was so enchanting that he couldn't dismiss the idea that he wanted, no, he should, it would be his obligation to remind him every day. I needed to tell Zoro's parents that he was the best and most handsome.

But when he had him, he didn't value his boyfriend much.

“Why are human beings like this? They want something obsessively, when they get it, they don't value it as much as they should, and then when they lose it they regret it.”

Zoro asked, not really expecting an answer. His smile had also been extinguished.

Ah, when Sanji had the displeasure of meeting Zoro and his current boyfriend on the street, he never wanted to die so much. He remembered that he wanted to enjoy life slowly, but now he just wanted to not even be on planet Earth. That way, he wouldn't be seeing him with someone else.

“Kill me now, I want to die.” Sanji closed his eyes and wished with all his might. When he walked away from the two, his request was almost answered. He came out of his reverie when the car honked.

Sanji arrived home, lay down on the couch, took off his shoes in the position he was in.

“That was not my plan for the future. It really wasn’t.”

He sighed tiredly and closed his eyes.

“Zoro is so beautiful.” He thought. “And in fact, he found a handsome guy too. But he held his hand like that. That way I don't like it. It’s part of some plan.” He concluded his thoughts.

Before he could think of anything else, his cell phone rang, and he heard that voice. That sweet, familiar voice. A smile appeared on his lips.

— Say it. - He tried not to look so excited.

— No one will be as beautiful as you. No one will compare to any of your qualities. Your beauty and essence, Sanji is unique.

Sanji was stunned and didn't understand.

— Hm... You too. - He managed to say.

— I just want you to... Smile again. Smile again. Even without me.

— Without you, the only thing I want is...

— Don't conclude.

...

— You held his hand the same way you did when you broke up with me, you want to come back to me, but you're afraid the same things will happen.

Sanji heard Zoro's breathing and knew that was a statement.

— They won't happen. I promise.

Zoro sighed again.

— Smile, Sanji. I don't want your beautiful smile to cease to exist.

Sanji knew that Zoro loved him. But the two of them together would no longer exist. Just like his smile.

“Maybe it's a sign, I don't care if I go to Hell or Heaven. As long as this ends, I no longer suffer seeing these two in front of me.”

— Heaven. 🍒