"Well...I just don't have feelings for you anymore," I told AJ.
"I feel the same way," he told me. "And only because we're drifting apart..you know what I'm saying?"
I nodded. "Yeah, this hasn't been us for a while. So..."
I looked at him. He looked at me. Then he stood up from the couch, helped me up, taking my hand.
He held me in his arms saying, "I hate to do this as much as we love each other but we can't keep acting so distant with each other. So I believe the best thing to do right now is to break up."
My heart felt so heavy right then. I just wanted to break down and cry. But I was not going to cry in front of AJ. I actually wanted to break up but for some reason it hurt so bad to let him go...
"Can we still be friends?" I asked him.
"Of course we can," AJ said.
"Well...I guess this is goodbye...," I said to him. I longingly wanted a hug from him before he left.
Either he felt the same way, or he must've read my mind. He grabbed me and pulled me into huge bear bug and held me tight.
"I'll always be here as a friend whenever you need me, okay?"
I just nodded and buried my head into his chest. We just sat there on the couch for about 10 minutes hugging each other. When we finally pulled away, he gave me a kiss on my cheek and said, "I'm gonna leave now."
"Bye, AJ," I said.
My heart felt so heavy after breaking up with AJ. But part of me was kinda happy since we ended things on good terms so we were still friends.
I fell asleep around 9:54 p.m after crying for 4 hours. It was just so hard to let go of my ex- boyfriend....was I ever going to get over this???
