Feb-Ibig Project: Oh, To Fall For Him [COMPLETED]

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

CHAPTER FIFTEEN

AFTER our talk, Jackie's and mine, I went to look for Clint, while Jackie went back to her preparations for the competition, she was part of — which actually turned out to be a dance competition and not a volleyball one. She even explained that it was because of her desire to pursue Nexus that made her join that department, but after our talk, she just wanted to compete not to have Nexus' attention, but because she actually enjoyed it.

But that day, it wasn't Clint that I saw first, but a vulnerable Nexus.

The person who was all bright and positive was trembling and breaking down right in front of my eyes. I did not know exactly what to do, but I felt my feet walk towards him, my mouth saying words such as "breathe", and my arms wrapping around him, hoping it would help him calm down.

So, when I thought it was helping, as I felt and heard him stop crying, I checked on him, only to see him lose consciousness. Nagpatulong pa ako no'n kela Kenny at Aui, mga kaibigan niyang naroroon din, para lang dalhin si Nexus sa clinic.

After making sure that he was okay with his friends, I went out of the room and continued searching for Clint. Alam ko namang hindi ako kailangan doon kaya ako na mismo ang umalis. But just after I left the room, Aui followed and asked me about Jackie.

Somehow, I was curious as to why she would ask about her, but I did not voice out my thoughts instead, I just told her where Jackie was and bid goodbye.

Hindi ko na alam kung anong nangyari kay Nexus after that. Hindi ko na rin naman naramdamang kailangan kong alamin dahil baka magmukha pa akong chismosa. Plus, with the state in which Nexus was, I did not have the heart to bring it up to anyone, most especially to him. Kaya naman nag-rely na lang ako sa kung anong nakikita ko matapos ang intrams.

Speaking of intrams, that day, I told myself that I should start moving on — like seryoso na sana this time. But then, as much as I planned to move on, doing it in an instant really is tough. For example, itong sa biology class namin na project. Partner ko siya at most of the time, kaming dalawa lang ang magkasama. There were times in which nararamdaman kong humihigpit pa rin ang puso ko habang nakatingin sa kaniya at inaalalang may babaeng ginugusto at sineseryoso na siya.

Kaya naman naisip kong itong pagmo-move on ko, uumpisahan ko sa pagbabawas ng nararamdamang sakit at bigat ng pakiramdam kada titingnan ko siya. And it somehow worked, because slowly, the pain was indeed lessening. Lessening... but it's still there.

Kaya naman hindi ko pa rin tuluyang napipigilan ang sarili kong puso na kumabog habang nararamdaman ko siyang nakatitig sa akin ngayon. Pasimple ako huminga nang malalim at ibinuga iyon saka lumingon sa kan'ya at pinagsalubong ang mga kilay ko. "Yung totoo? Alin ba talaga ang dapat mong i-observe? Ako o 'yong makahiya?" I commend your bravery in saying those words, Had.

I was actually expecting to see Nexus laughing at my remark — since that's his usual and typical response, but I didn't. Instead, I saw him staring at me with those eyes. And I honestly did not want to assume, but those emotions playing in his eyes were making my heart pound so loud.

"Obvious kaya kung paano ka tingnan ni Nexus. Also, whenever you're together, he has this serene expression, and it's not hard to miss. And after hearing from Aui that he's courting someone, I knew exactly that it was you."

Jackie's words were playing inside my head like a broken record. Hindi sa ayokong paniwalaan ang sinabi niya pero imposible kasi. I mean you would never like me, right, Nexus?

"Hello? President Nexus?" Kumaway-kaway pa ako para lang makuha ang atensyon ni Nexus na tulala. Para hindi ko na makita ulit yung nakakalitong emosyon na 'yon. May nililigawan na siya, Had. 'Wag mo nang lokohin at paasahin ang sarili mo, Had. Masasaktan na naman tayo eh.