The Famous Idol (Lisrene)

Jelly, Jelly

LISA

It's been a month since the incident happened. And yes, I am under indefinite hiatus. I don't know if when will I come back to the industry, because as of now, I lose my motivation. Though, we're in the mid of investigation and my only primary goal right now is to prove my innocence. If I'll be acquited from this accusations, all I want is to regain myself.

I wanted to be the best version of myself after this. I've gone through a lot even losing the love of my life, JooHyun Bae. Although I regret pushing her, part of me is happy because she's slowly claiming her original position. No one can deny the fact that she's the original visual, and no one can beat her from that title.

I miss her, I badly miss her. I wanted to hug her, I wanted to touch her, I wanted to be with her. Throughout our relationship, she became my comfort and my home. But now, I can only see her from afar, I can only dream of her, and I can only think of the memories we have.

"Yah! I told you, don't eat my chips!" It was Bambam who is yelling at Jackson. They've been spending their spare time here in my house. Although they're rowdy, I'm still grateful because they're keeping me company. At least, I can't feel totally lonely.

"I thought that's not yours" Jackson defended which is obviously just trying to pissed Bambam.

"Can you two be quiet? I can't focus here." Jisoo unnie butted in. Eversince the incident happened, she opted to do her works in my house. She didn't left my side, and even keep me updated if she has an emergency meeting.

"Maybe I'll just watch." Bambam said as he turned on the television.

Well, the universe might wanted me to send a message since upon turning on the Television, the advertisement of a make-up product popped up and the model is no other than Irene Bae.

Bambam clear his throat upon realizing it "Maybe, I'll switch the channel."

"No." I stopped him which made them look at me at the same time. I honestly missed her so much, and I just wanted to see her. Seeing her looking more beautiful makes me missed her even more.

My heart still remembers every inch of her. Her image might left my sight, but my mind is always full of her pictures. And now, even the feeling of her touch is distant and it remains a memory. I was in deep thought that I'm not aware that a tear is slowly forming through my eyes. I am longing for her presence.

"Hey. Everything okay?" Jisoo unnie patted my shoulder that makes me regain my conciousness.

"Maybe just shift to another channel" I responded plainly as I furtively wiped the edge of my eyes.

"Wanna grab some beer?" Bambam said looking at me.

"Sure." I responded but my cellphone vibrated "Raincheck. I can't." I continued as I show them the caller ID of the person calling me.

"Are you and Jennie will be having a date?" Jackson asked innocently.

"Yah! When did you and Jennie get back?" Bambam eyes widened, probably he can't believe that me and Jennie were in good terms, I mean in a friendly term.

"Silly! We're not. No one can replace Irene" I said as I get up ang grab my coat and my car keys.

"Where are you going?" Jisoo asked me. She doesn't have any idea what I've been up to lately. She's busy and I don't want to disturb her on my personal issues.

"Be back before dinner. See yah!" I waved at them before walking inside my car.

Jennie and I were investigating about the accusations thrown at me by X Entertainment. YG is giving a hands-off on this issue, and I can't blame them since my contract already expired. Wonjae is also giving me piece of informations which is very informative, and we're close in proving my innocence.