The Sex(y)ist KTH FF

Chapter 11: "Hey, Look. It's You!"

When we get to the hotel room and do our nightly routine neither of us bring up the kiss. Or kisses rather.

We didn't talk about it when it happened. Or when we went to the top of the tower and gazed at the wonderful view for some time.

We didn't mention it when we were driving back to the hotel and we definitely aren't talking about it now as we're getting into bed after our respective showers.

In fact, I'd argue it's best we never talk about it ever.

Unless of course I ever have the urge to beg the heavens to let me be swallowed by the earth for how awkward I feel.

My cheeks heat up just thinking about the moment.

"Hey, what are we doing tomorrow by the way?" I ask.

"Tomorrow we'll go to the Louvre and Notre Dame. The day after, I booked that river cruise on the Seine that I told you about. That's in the afternoon. Other than that, it's up to you. "

"Ooh on the river cruise day we can do some shopping. I actually have a lot of shopping to do. I have to get something for my parents, for Appa, for Somin and Somin's halmeoni and also Jiwoo, my sister. "

I might not get along well with my sister but that doesn't mean I don't try. I do. She just doesn't like me much.
Which I remind myself is okay because everyone is entitled to their opinions even if they're hurtful. So it's just something else I'd have to take in my stride.
Realistically, it's not like I'm her biggest fan either. Though that has more to do with her not liking me but in general we've never really bonded over anything.

"She didn't come to our wedding. Your sister?"

"No. She was travelling. She's in the Maldives now. But I think she was in Portugal before that. She likes travelling. But she'll probably go back home for a little bit and then leave again."

"How come you haven't travelled before? I assumed your family just didn't. But your sister clearly has. So why haven't you, if it excites you so much?"

"My parents never wanted to travel on a plane. They had people close to them who got into a plane crash and passed. So after that planes traumatised them. They didn't want Jiwoo and I to go on them either. Jiwoo doesn't listen though and she didn't mind travelling alone so she went as soon as she could. At first they convinced her to at least call when she arrived somewhere but now she hardly tells them she's even going somewhere else. I guess they're used to it now," I shrug. "I can respect her courage and sense of adventure...and even the fact that she doesn't let anything hold her back from doing what she wants. It's admirable really, to be so carefree" I tell him honestly.

"But I've never been that way. I'm a worrier," I smile a little. "Aside from my own fears, before, I never wanted to go anywhere without my parents. But mostly I never wanted to be a cause of concern to them. My entire life, I've tried my best to not be a worry to my parents. To anyone really. ...Well if we excuse that momentary madness of my sad attempt at running away. Besides that unsuccessful infraction, I've tried to not be a trouble at any point. If staying by my parents side meant not worrying them, then it was an easy choice to make," I explain. "And anyway, I don't like the idea of travelling alone. So if they wouldn't go with me who would? My sister prefers her solo trips. Somin refuses to be far away enough that she can't reach her grandmother within an hour if need be. And there's no one else I'm close to. So yeah, something from all of that should answer your question."

Taehyung watches me for a moment and the look in his eyes is unnerving to say the least. It makes me feel like he sees right through me. Like he knows everything about me. Like...he understands it now?