Everything You Need

Chapter Nineteen

Madeline

I smiled at my message from Johnathon as he had made a joke about my cravings. The morning sickness and nausea had officially settled in. I just felt shitty the whole day, so he was trying to cheer me up.

I was currently eating ramen noodles with gyoza dumplings, but I had dumped so much chili oil and Siracha into my noodles which made him concerned for me and the baby. I also had gotten to the Asian supermarket and bought the red Asian chilies. I cut those up and added it to my bowl of noodles.

I was craving something spicy and nothing else. Why go mild spicy when I can go hot spicy. My mouth may have been burning, but it felt so nice that I couldn't eating. I was watching family guy as well to entertain myself.

I had no plans for today, I would be at home most of the day. I need to do some more school work and I have been doing more baby research. I should call Christopher later and talk to him about my feelings about the baby.

I'm considering keeping it. I might actually have a baby. At the same time, I'm not ready to have one. I never planned for this to happen, I wanted to wait to have a child. Now, I don't even know anymore.

Chris makes me feel secure about having a baby, but I just have to think about my whole life front this point onward. I don't if I can just give up my career that hasn't even started for a baby, but also what if Chris and I don't work out the...

No. I can't think about all of that.

I need to be in the present. I just need to weigh out my options and just talk to Chris. I'm also not telling my family just yet, I will tell them after I do the paternity test with Chris. That sounds like the most reasonable plan.

Giselle also told me she wasn't coming home tonight, she was staying at Dion's tonight. That meant I would be able to film content tonight. I would probably do live like usual, but I somehow can't be asked to edit. It's so long.

I used my chopsticks and scooped up my noodles, putting them in my mouth. The spice hits my tongue and slowly leaves that warming effect in my lips. This baby better like spicy food when it grows up.

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I had just spoken to Christopher and his voice was a deep soothing softness to it. It was easy to be seduced by his voice. I laid in my bed thinking about him, wanting him and wishing he was right here. My pussy was missing, my baby was literally crying out for him.

I swear the pregnancy hormones are killing me, because I felt horny on and off like crazy. I haven't even spoken to him about my sex obsession which only he can fill. I can imagine him touching me and telling me how good I feel and taste.

My nipples were tightened and became perky. I bit my lip softly as I thought about it. I would be the only one home for a whole night. Giselle wasn't coming back so I can film whatever I want. I might as well do it while I have the time.

I got out of the bed and I pushed my covers to the side as I thought about what I wanted to do tonight. I could choose form anything, but if I could choose it would be Chris. We had sex twice again and I'm already addicted again.

He knows how to fuck and he's everything I need in the bed. I orgasm in ways that I could never do on my own except with him. He just gives me this rush that I crave over and over.

I set up my camera and my laptop, as I the anticipation and excitement was getting to me. I changed from my boring clothes into Lilac lingerie. She was a nice lavender purple color. She made my breast push up and look round. I had thigh garters and a thin thong as my panty. I liked to call this lingerie set, Rapunzel since it represented her colors.